When We Were Young

"......小时候牵着爹的手来到宫廷就喜欢上了宫廷。虽然生为士大夫家的女儿，爹极力阻止，我还是入宫来了。但是小时候华丽的宫廷, 原来都是假相而已......." -Top Lady Zheng

Why do we become more complicated as people when we grow up?

Where is all the innocence and naivety that we had when we were young?

Why do things that seem so nice change so much?

I remember when I was young I wanted to be an adult because I felt they have so much freedom. Nobody cares about where they go and they just buy anything they want and do what they like.

When I was starting to grow up I still thought it was true. I had more and more freedom and did more and more things that I always wanted to do as a child. I felt my dream was coming true.

Yet when I really became an adult I realise that adults have very little freedom too. Just that their restrictions were not physical....

The freedom that seem to come with adulthood was actually just an illusion.

As adults we are all bounded to earn more money.

We are bounded by our work.

We have to be somewhere at some time doing something people asked us to do.

We cannot say certain things because they are inappropriate.

We cannot act a certain way because people dont like.

We cannot do some stuff because no money.

Where we were young everything was simple. No worries.... Today we bitch about friends, make enemies, scold bad words, criticise people, make use of people and do other horrible things.

Some of the things I am guilty of, no doubt. Lately I keep asking myself where has my innocence as a child gone? Why cant I keep it simple

The notion that adults are happier is only but an impression that stands when we were young. It clears to reveal grey skies when we all grow up.

I dont want to be childish. A mature way of handling things and a mature opinion is better.

But some innocence would do us good. At least I speak for myself.