Tuesday, October 30, 2007

六四告诉我

'This is a world of have-nots, not haves' -HKT, in real life

Lately I keep listening to a song that move me to tears all the time

看你紧闭的嘴唇,它什么都不说......

看你飘忽的眼神,它无情的闪动.........

看你和我的回忆和我擦肩而过

你的改变太冷漠,我没有勇气大声的说

告诉我.....

你不是真的离开我.......

你也不愿这样的夜里,把难过留给我......

People are weak and cheap... Thats why we do certain things even if we knew that we would hurt badly after all.....

I hate myself.....

I hate you.....

I hate my life......

I hate you......

I hate loneliness....

I hate running away

I hate being weak

I hate being so emotional

I hate being hurt

I hate being down

I hate you......

I hate myself for hating you.

'Love those that stay in my heart. Fuck the rest of the ephemeral world' -HKT, in real life

六四 ~ 天安门

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Saturday, October 27, 2007

甲午。从前

'我把心留下来,身体给了它' -HKT, in real life

刚才有陌生人一直问我不想回答的问题。

除了不想......或许参杂了一丝不知如何回答的心情。

生平少数次,我不知如何回答问题。

因为不想面对,而选择逃避。

因为逃避,所以不想回答这个问题。

太多太多的回忆了.......可是怎么老想不起这些回忆是什么?

记不起的回忆....使我老是睡不安稳。

回忆出现在梦里,梦醒后的苦滋并不好受。

心坎里头的话,你听到了吗?

结果天亮时,大家还是选择离我而去。

虽然身体坚持往前,但内心早已向现实底头了。

'已经不能再回到从前了' ~ 这句话我铭记在心

内心还是一直希望.........天冷你就回来

你明白吗?如果我不直说,你能听明白我心坎里头的话吗?

不要以为你很懂.......其实你什么都不懂.....

甲午 ~ 北京

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Pictures Galore

Okay people. A lot of pictures to upload but always no time. So a whole load of them here.

A pile of shit left at Cafe Cartel
Haha no lah. Thats just a doughnut that Karin bought but look like shit

Where did the shit drop from? The sky? - Nat wonders. Haha

And stuff we ate after we watch Lust Caution
My favorite dish at Xing Wang.

Curry Noodles. In the end I finished half even though it is Karin's food

The loneliest Ice-Blended Mocha in the world. Haha. Bought it at Bukit Batok after tuition and sat at West Mall to drink alone.

Yup. Bleh ate alot of stuff.... but also spend alot of money....

Have fun while we can.... Cause dont know when will be unhappy and poor again.....

我很好。

你呢?

1814 ~ 新加坡河畔

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Friday, October 26, 2007

Protein Structure & Function

Very busy lately. No time to update........

My students having O levels so busy with marking their practice papers.....

I must say its never ending marking

Why am I complaining like a teacher even though I am still not one?

Really! Its never ending marking....

If not marking, then I am busy at the Brainforest of Clementi, isolating serum proteins and transforming zebrafish embryos.... And of course struggling with my laboratory reports....

Example of bad experimental technique:

Ka-na-sai. After spending six hours in Biochemistry Lab, the proteins never separate properly. What the fuck?

After doing all these, Youth Incubator lessons and work takes up the rest of my time........

By the end of next june, I would have completed four shows!

Four? Okay, I am not going to have time next year either......

The most exciting?

House of Sin - Working with Li Xie again together with a galaxy of theatre stars again..... EVERYBODY must come and watch!

Arts Fest - What I cannot go Shanghai and do I do in Singapore. Is it a sub-urb? No its another country! Cheers

Okay, enough of all these work related stuff....

Wanted to upload some photos but stupid blogspot got some error things....

Will be watching a film by local director Ekachai Uekrongtham (artistic director of Action Theatre) called 'Pleasure Factory' R21. Its a film about our geylang red-light industry and stars Loo Zihan, Yang Kuei Mei (Ang Lee's 'Eat Woman Drink Man' and Tsai Ming Liang's 'The Hole') Although it receive terrible reviews, I think i will still go support because it is a local film.

Its interesting to note that Loo Zihan (NTU Student) made news (WANBAO Front Page) because he went nude and had masturbation scenes in the film, which once again was cut by our lovely censors

What I wanted to see is not the controversy but how a theatre person translate onto the silver screen....

Anyway if you are interested, wait for my reviews.

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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

无情。菜市口

真是无情无意。

最凶的动物是女人,最无情的是男人。

身为男人,我非常清楚。要是铁了心,我比谁都恨。

死孩子,别太认真。玩玩就算了。千万别放感情。只有不怕死的人才会认真的玩这个游戏

'人玩火的时候,受伤的总是自己' - HKT, in real life

我无情,请别怪我。

受伤的人下场都是一样的。

戊戌~菜市口

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Sunday, October 07, 2007

Lust.Caution

Went to watch Lust.Caution with Nat and Karin on saturday night...

Movie tickets are damn expensive on Saturdays lah......

Lust.Caution is Ang Lee's latest directorial effort, his first chinese language film after 2000's sleeper hit 'Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon' which ignited the world's craze for martial arts period films....

It is based on the short story by Eileen Chang, still considered as China's most authoritive female writer of her time, condemned by some of her countrymen as a writer with a narrow perspective that perpetuates from her novellas and essays, including Eighteen Springs which has already been adapted on the silver screens by other auteurs like Ann Hui

Against a political backdrop of the Japanese Occupation period of China, it is essentially about love, passion, emotion and lust, just like 'Lan Yu' by Stanley Kwan. The tumultous times was just a tool to tell the story about a young lady (Tang Wei) caught between love and honour, and between two important yet cruel men (Wang Leehom and Tony Leung) in her life.

It was never meant for the turbulent period to be the centrepiece of the entire narrative.

As with other Ang Lee films, Lust.Caution was seemingly quiet and slow on the surface, even bland, yet beneath the benign pacing and low volume of the film were intense powerful undercurrents that provided much of the dramatic tension that was required to lend the film weight and solidity.

Innocent mahjong games were infused with motives held subtly by each of the mahjong players, and everyone in the game had their own agenda. This brings the true spirit of the mahjong game, 各怀鬼胎 to life.

However, unlike other Ang Lee films like the aptly named Pushing Hands, Eat Women Drink Man and even Brokeback Mountain, Lust.Caution can be considered a personal groundbreaking film by the director as he negotiates and confront the dirty and dark side of life, violence and extreme passion being his centrepieces for this film.

He does not shy away from the topics, taking them head on and deconstructing these thematics bravely.

For this, I applaud him.

Tang Wei will not be the next Zhang Ziyi, because she has a much wider emotional range. She will only be Tang Wei.... and no next this person or next that person.

And she act well.

Tony Leung turned in yet another stellar performance. It is considered a breakthrough performance for him.

It was apparent that Wong Leehom put into much effort into his character, under the terrific guidance of Ang Lee. Unfortunately he appeared stiff at times, inable to inject a certain degree of flexibility in dictating his lines.

The by-now famous edited version of the film, which I watched, unfortunately couldnt convey the required amount of emotional intensity to the audience. Even if it was personally edited by Ang Lee, it felt as if it a very important ingredient was missing from the whole film, preventing it from becoming the masterpiece that it was supposed to be

It was like a toothless tiger, without bite in other words.

The censored version came about because the film would not have been passed through the conservative Chinese authorities and Ang Lee wanted the Chinese to still be able to watch the film.

I feel sad that art had to be compromised because of backward conservative people who couldnt accept confrontation of the darker side of reality and life.

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