New Play Season: Playback

So here we are...... finally.....

At the edge of the end......

Can't describe the mixture of feelings right at the end of it though......

Just wanted to say that on some days, I felt glad I did this show......

But on other days, I wished I hadnt done it at all.....

Its not that I am temperamental or when things happen to me, I feel like running away.....

Its just..... these things happen and they make me question why I am here at all...... I could be off learning something and doing something happier....

But in the end.... I still took away something.....

That the ends do not always justify the means....

Ends?? What ends??

Is the end the right end? What if it is the wrong end?

When you used the means to get to the end, is the end great? Does it make you happy?

What have you lost? What have you gained?

The end may be beautiful and happy and bright and sunshine....... But at what cost?

At what cost?

You can afford the cost.... but can others withstand the damage you did to them? Do you care? Have you spared a thought for others?

Can you truly truly afford the cost

No matter whether we are able enough or not, we cannot be so selfish..... We simply CANNOT......

It is just not right.

Right at the end, I would have lost many things....

But its alright....

Don't complain......

I can manage....

As always

A New Person . Turn Over

Being focused on your own problems make you have a very narrow scope of life. You become inward looking and loses sight of everything and everyone else..... As my friend Natalie puts it, my dictionary only has 'me' and nobody else in it......

Or others might say: In my opinion, the world revolves around me.

Honestly, I am not like that in the past..... In the very far past....

Something happened in late 2006. Since then, I have been very busy fending off my problems and fending for myself..... As observed from my blog postings, my life perpetuates a progessive but seismic shift from a look towards the outside world to a careful and deep examination of the problematic life I have.....

From then, more problems arose..... From one event led on to the other..... I got so involved in reacting to all these changes that nothing else seemed to matter more.......

Fear turned to emo, emo turned to depression, depression turned to selfish.

How scary is the change.....

And it was painful..... Because while I wanted my Absolute Soul Field to grow, it shrinked even further....... People broke through to my innermost soul easily

But time proved to be the best medicine for any damage taken..... Somehow, all my injuries evaporated silently yet gradually with time......

And with some guidance, patience and reminders from people, I stepped out from the dark clouds of the past......

I become somewhat outward looking once more.... I have come to realise that by focusing on other people, you become less inward-looking. You heal, you become less selfish.... You become more concious of the presence of other things and people......

And it provides an escape to your own problems, albeit a temporary one......

Looking at other people strengthened my Absolute Soul Field. I can feel it..... Nobody broke through anymore......

I hope I can continue to be outward looking.... to look out for people.... to think for people first before thinking about myself......

Like my friend Karin, who is truly truly altruistic. Whatver she does, she always think about others first......

I want to stop starting sentences with 'I', I want to stop finishing sentences with 'me'.

I want to be a new person.

Turn over.

Food For KT's Thought 1

This blog posting consists of two separate 'dishes'.......

WAHAHahahahahahaha! Get it? (Wipe off my tears of laughter) Oh I am sooooooo humorous..... (Roll around on the floor)

Laugh what laugh? So funny meh? XIAO!

Haha

Dead Bird

Yesterday I saw a dead bird on a small road behind the lab building.......

Ants were crawling all over it, carrying bits and pieces of the dead bird bit by bit away to wherever they stay at..... Feather bits, flesh parts, unidentifiable parts.....

The skull of the bird can already been seen..... The eyeballs are being hollowed out by the ants and decomposition.

Its funny. But when we are dead and buried in a coffin, the same process will eventually happen to us. Its weird. Its disgusting.... but it is all but part of the natural process or cycle of nutrients

I don't know..... But it sounds so natural and unthinkable when it is put that way... 'Cycle of Nutrients'

I want to be cremated when I die..... A much much less disgusting and faster process of reducing me to nutrients after I die.

I was standing like 50cm away from the dead bird..... There was no rotting stench..... I hesitated to go forward to look.... I am not sure if I can stand the sight if I go very near......

I wonder what the bird was thinking about just before it died..... I wonder if it knew that it was near its end..... I wonder how it really died...... Why did it choose to die by the roadside?

I wonder if I would know when I am near my end.... I wonder how would the 'ultimate last' be for me. Is it really true that people would know when their end is near.....

Its not scary for me..... But I just want to find out when and where and how. That's all.

At my ultimate last, I hope I can muster a mockingly quiet laugh. I hope I can say 'So this is my last. Farewell'

Live Friend

Met JP for dinner.

Its kind of weird, but I am not really really close to JP.

He was my senior in JC. And after that, he was my recruit and trained under me for 2 months plus in BMTC.

And then we met occasionally after NS. So technically although I knew him for 4 plus years, we are not really really close.

But we can still sit together and have dinner. And we could connect very very well......

Its kind of weird..... Strange..... But its sort of wonderful as well..... Its not everyday you have such friends.... which are hard to come by.... And must be cherished........

Some people step into your life and then leave..... Some people left but they come back into your life again.... Some people just stay permanently.... Some people leave forever.....

It can be heartbreaking sometimes..... But look on the bright side, those who stay behind..... they are your true friends I guess....

Haha

Mad Mad World

What the hell happened?

Just two days never read newspaper or follow the news then the world turned sort of topsy-turvy already.

Mumbai under seige by terrorists. One Singaporean died.

PAD demonstrators/protestors storm the airports and paralysed air travel into and out of the Thailand.

The Thailand one not very surprising. It has dragged on for so long already and surely the PAD has to take on even more drastic actions to acheive their aims and goals.

But Mumbai? Why Mumbai? No warning signs at all and suddenly they are under siege by terrorists.......

Clash over ideals..... Very very scary. People can kill each other over ideals. People can also stop each other from dying just because they believe in something not everyone else believes in.

The world has gone totally mad.... Loss of common sense.....

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Yesterday went out with girl1 and girl2. We went ViVO to eat 'Marche' and draw money....

I think we are the loudest people in Marche lah.... Yak yak yak away at the top of our voices....

But very long never eat marche already. And we went crazy yesterday night..... Especially when you go out with girl2..... She huh, spend money like water one loh.....

We ate oysters, lots of different pastry, rosti with sausage, soup, pizza and drinks....

Then laugh laugh laugh like mad..... Because of bread.....

BUt girl1 very different already. Last time her fav line is always 'I don't know' but now she is so full of opinion on everything..... And she is so much more mature now... Good for you girl1.

Then we just talk about a galaxy of things and then bitch about so many people......

Very long never meet them..... very long never had so much fun with them already.....

Haha......

Lets do it soon again.

Monkey Committee

Note from author: This is an ultra-controversial blog posting. You have to read it carefully to understand the intricacies between the lines.

This group of people whom I am describing, I am definitely going to have a showdown with them next year.

Mark my words

Caution: This is an one-sided account of the monkey committee. Please listen to them as well, then make your decision on which side you would stand on. Thank you.

Monkey Committee

Once upon a time, there lived a bunch of monkeys in a small small hut.

There were the very old and wise monkeys, the soon-to-be-grown-up (STBGU) monkeys, the young monkeys and the young young monkeys.

One day, the STBGU monkeys did not see eye-to-eye with the old and wise monkeys. And they liked the environment in other huts better. So one by one, slowly but surely, they left quietly....

The old monkeys thought it was okay. Their reason was that young monkeys were suppose to grow up and replace STBGU monkeys.

STBGU monkeys were quite important, as they help guide over the young and the young young monkeys and help in their development.

So, a group of young monkeys took over from the STBGU monkeys, with the blessings of the old and wise ones

At first, this group of young monkeys seem to be doing a good job at replacing all these STBGU monkeys that left.....

But soon, their heads grew bigger and bigger...... Their hearts became colder and colder.......

Soon, they took things into their own hands. They abused the old hierachy left beind by a smart STBGU and created a close-up committee to rule over the rest of the young monkeys. They called it the CLOSED-committee.

They defied the old monkeys and tried to direct the younger monkeys to outmanouvere the old and wise monkeys.

They felt that they should be allowed to do anything. Nobody should restrict them. There is no 'right or wrong'. In their eyes, those who praise them are good. Those who agree with them are good. Those who object are very bad. Those who disagree should be banished far far away.

Using the collective voice of the CLOSED-committee, they lorded over the young monkeys. They gave jobs in the hut to those that agreed with them. They admitted people into the CLOSED-committee who they like. Those that they don't like, the CLOSED-committee just ignored them whenever they have something to say. 'WE MUST MOVE ON' they yell to the young ones 'NOBODY WILL STOP US'

They think they know best. They always will insist that they are the best. After all, they hold all the power

The old and wise monkeys turned a blind eye to all these trouble. As long as the CLOSED committee doesn't cross any lines, they would keep quiet..... Some say they don't even know what has been going on....

Slowly but surely, the CLOSED committee realised that they were facing problems. They couldn't support the system that they created. They tried to ignore the problems they faced. They know that they are creating these problems that they are trying to solve, but they refused to face up. They tried to run away from the problems, hoping that the problems would go away by themselves.

They knew that if they faced up to their problems, the CLOSED-committee would fall apart. They would lose their absolute grip on the young monkeys. They would lose the capacity to do anything they like. They will lose everything.

The old and wise monkeys started to become concious of the problems. They tried to do something about it. But alas, the CLOSED-committee out-manouvered them once again, like they always do. After all, the CLOSED-committee was closer to the ground than the old and wise monkeys.

Many many young monkeys then started to see the failings of the CLOSED-committee. Small whispers started amongst themselves. Then they grew louder and louder. But the CLOSED-committee still was able to ignore these dissendents as they still deceived enough monkeys to believe that they could still lead the young monkeys. They silenced the young monkeys who disagreed.....

When committees are doing a bad job, they should just all move aside so that we can change people to do the job and see whether we can have anything new and productive.

'强弩之末，不可穿苟布' ~HKT, in real life

壮志未酬

Joshua Benjamin Jeyaretnam
1926 - 2008

出师未捷身先死

天意弄人啊。怎么不让J.B.J.先生多留几年，让他完成他的梦想呢？

他并不一定是个伟大的政治家，可是他绝对是个勇敢，坚强的政治家。

再辛苦还是坚持，再艰难也从未退缩，这种精神让人感动。

J.B.J.先生让我佩服的地方，就是他没钱也无所谓，面对强大的恶势力也不畏惧。我没有办法做到。如果没有钱，我无法想象。如果遇到强权，我不会主张对抗。

那天在读报纸。读到他破产时到处卖书来还债，我觉得他很可怜，为他难过。如果我看到他在卖书，我一定会买一本，做为我帮忙对抗强权出的一份力。

他的儿子说他不肯开刀做心脏手术，因为他深信：“When your time is up, your time is up"

我也是这么认为。老师是对的。

谁也不能阻挡岁月的流逝

J.B.J.先生，黄泉路上走好。希望你到一个没有恶势力的地方生活。

珍重......安康

The Lousy Script

刚刚才和庆亮谈我最近写关于大便的剧本。

我只能说：‘这个世界是灰暗的！’

哈哈。

开玩笑的。别当真。

可是真的有很多问题。

很多逻辑，思考，构思，概念和技术上的问题。

我自己听了，我都想叫自己去吃大便。

写的时候都一只觉得哪里不对劲，可是就是说不出一个所以然，只知道有问题。现在听老师教，立即茅塞顿开。

回去想想，整理思绪，从新来过。

“群雄并争天下，与君不能相提并论，憾之、亏之、恨之、气之” ~HKT, in real life

As Tears Go By

"谁也无法阻挡岁月的流逝" ~HKT, in real life

Yesterday went to visit my aunt in the hospital. She just had an operation to remove her tumor....

On the way to her ward, my mind had this image of her which I was so used to seeing for the past 23 years since I grew concious of this world...

Never had I once stop to think that chemotherapy and operation would have greatly adverse effects on the appearance of a person....

So much for being a Life Science student.

走入病房，打开布帘的时候，我所看到的阿姨，瞬间让我有种错愕感。

她的脸非常苍白，皱纹明显许多，整个人看起来非常虚弱。

我顿时意识到：阿姨老了。

在我成长的这二十三年中，阿姨不知不觉老了，病毒、药物、治疗更是加快了这个过程。

我并没有漏出惊讶的表情，若无其事的打招呼，问候她，关心她。多亏我的好演技。

一直在想：老师是对的。

谁也不能阻挡岁月的流逝

想着想着，鼻子一阵酸，压不住的眼泪拥进眼眶里。

不知不觉，身边很多人都静悄悄老了。爸爸，妈妈，阿姨，蓝老师，佩芳老师，曼华老师......

而我......后知后觉。

Looking at the Class A ward my aunt stays in, I really feel glad that she can afford to get good treatment....

She has no husband nor children....But she has us..... She has me.....

阿姨，加油

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这年下来，一直听到有认识的人过世。

"天下有哪个人是没有最后的？" ~郑尚宫，大长今

记得去参加一场丧礼的路上，我问钟坤华：“不知道我的最后会是怎样的”

不知道最后有没有人知道

不知道最后有没有人送我上黄泉路

不知道最后会不会有好结果

我做了很多坏事，但是我还是希望我会有好下场。

1964 ~香港

Death of a Teacher

Been reading 'Death of a Salesman' by Arthur Miller

Very good play. Anyone who wants to look at a good modern play should look at 'Death of a Salesman'

I think I understand why I don't want to give up on my Life Sciences Honors despite having lost all interest in studying.

Because I am not ready to give up playing yet.

If I become a teacher in June and let go of honors year, I will lose a year of playing. I wont be able to watch so much TV, have so much free time and most importantly, cannot do so much theatre work already.

That's why I am still hanging on despite being on the verge of walking away from it all.

Here you go.

Another Teacher has died.

Haha

Director's Dream

Going to be a director soon.

I am taking a Theatre Studies Module this semester and we have a practical project where we have to present a 15 minute play to a panel of judges.

By the way, I didnt take this module to show off to people what I actually do in real life. I really really took this module because it is the only module left that can fit into my stupid timetable.

I want to add meta-texture into the play by having observers in the show and splitting the story into two layers

I want to infuse Brechtian style into the play

I want a slight hint of Biomechanics to increase the vividity of the play

But I cannot do any of these things. Coz the rules of the game say I cant

Maybe the biomechanics. I don't know.

What shit director if I cannot do all these things that I want to do?

Maybe I really will take my marks and play with it. Not like I really care for K.K. Seet's approval.

But at least I will get artistic satisfaction of trying out everything that I want to try.

Aiyah see how first lah. I always say finish then at the last moment coward down to follow everyone and do the normal stuff one.

Haha.

挺蓝。PAR

我须承认：我是泛蓝的。

所以马英九在总统大选中获胜，我非常开心。

国民党一党独大，我乐极了。

以前老是觉得民进党没有那么糟糕，是泛蓝的媒体从中作梗，把陈水扁等人唱衰，所以使民进党看起来是个乱党。

可是当杜政胜（台湾教育部长）把“三只小猪”列为成语的时候，我真的很怀疑这些人到底在搞什么鬼。

爆发总统弊案，陈大总统死赖着不下台，让我开始相信陈文倩赵少康一群人在政论节目上所说的内容。

国家经济倒退，民不聊生，不专心拼经济，改善民生，还一意要去蒋化，让我觉得他们是饭桶。

最后，坚持浪费纳税人的钱，去拆下‘大中至正’这块老招牌，还间接导致无辜百姓受伤，我随能理解，却无法苟同。

他妈的。又关我什么事啊？

真是多管闲事。

HAHA

多读书

有一天，闲着没事，在和艺术总监郭大师聊天。

由于正处于一个自我进步和学习的状态，便向他请教应该读哪些书。

以下是和他大略的谈话。

大师：多读一点书吧。都已经没什么生活经历了还不多读点书。

微臣：从哪里看的出我没什么生活经历？

大师：从你怎么和人说话，从你怎么处事。我还跟你合作过啊。

的确。一个人的思想，谈吐都可以看得出他的生活经历。

只要你稍微仔细观察，就会发现。

所以，如果生活乏味，没有起伏的时候，可以依大师的建议，多读书。 就算生活大起大落，还是可以读书。

多读书，可以激发思考，丰富知识，使人成长。如此，人生会变得更有意义，更有深度。

他妈的。我又在写小学文章。

Haha

天真。天份

《极乐世界》的首演结束了。

做这出戏，只能用‘百种感受，一言难尽’来形容。

做得开心吗？

开心。做宝宝的戏永远都是快乐的........

这个戏，让我获益不浅。

我想落幕以后，最大的收获就是意识到我的天真。

我太天真了。

天真的以为谦卑的态度，诚恳对人，热衷学习，乐于助人就足够了。

他妈的。亲爱的何健僮，你以为你在写小学作文吗？

就算你踏出你的工作范围去帮助别人有怎样？

就算你好不计较的做事又如何？

就算你脚趾受伤却还老想着回去排练又怎样？

没有怎样。没有如何。因为每个人都是这样。

可是只有你不会很多东西。只有你不懂很多东西。只有你没想到，也没考虑到很多东西。只有你是新人。一个常常犯错的大白痴。

所以你可以被人批判。所以人家有权力带有色眼镜看你。所以别人能用看不起你的语言使你难受。

真是他妈的天真。

毫不了解情况却又自以为是的陈玉能认为他一定可以做一个比我出色的 SOUND OPERATOR.理由是他的音乐感比我强。

没错。他的音乐感比我强太多了。

可是音乐感强就能比我做得更好这种无知的想法我无法苟同。

不是因为我没有办发忍受人家比我强。拜托，我没有那么好胜。

其实，做SOUND-OP最重要的是要专心听舞台监督叫CUE。要非常专注。而且，手指的反应要够快。SM喊CUE就走CUE，SM没叫CUE你最好不要动。就算SM叫错CUE，只要SM喊你就得走CUE。就算你觉得音乐CUE应该走了，SM没叫，你也不可以动。

况且，SOUND几时进，是看你对戏的感觉的了解，而并非音乐感好不好。

如果场地没有SOUND CREW和完善的音乐器材，你还要帮忙SET UP音响系统，搬SPEAKERS，铺CABLE。只要有电线，你就要会怎么把它们给粘好在地上，避免钩到演员造成意外。

这几天，我学到电线不能乱乱粘。是有方法的。我学到电线不能乱乱铺，除非你想把演员干掉。

这几天，我老是被人用看不起的语气跟我说话。我老是让人带有色眼镜来看我。不是因为我份内的工作做不好。是因为我做了份外的事。

我必须承认，我对某些事没有天份。但并不代表你们可以用高高在上的语气和我说话。

我想，世上有太多太多的人不能不批判别人，无法不鄙视别人。也许，包括我在内。

所以‘郭生’永远只有一个。

世上不可能再有第二个‘郭生’了。

六四告诉我

'This is a world of have-nots, not haves' -HKT, in real life

Lately I keep listening to a song that move me to tears all the time

看你紧闭的嘴唇，它什么都不说......

看你飘忽的眼神，它无情的闪动.........

看你和我的回忆和我擦肩而过

你的改变太冷漠，我没有勇气大声的说

告诉我.....

你不是真的离开我.......

你也不愿这样的夜里，把难过留给我......

People are weak and cheap... Thats why we do certain things even if we knew that we would hurt badly after all.....

I hate myself.....

I hate you.....

I hate my life......

I hate you......

I hate loneliness....

I hate running away

I hate being weak

I hate being so emotional

I hate being hurt

I hate being down

I hate you......

I hate myself for hating you.

'Love those that stay in my heart. Fuck the rest of the ephemeral world' -HKT, in real life

六四 ~ 天安门

甲午。从前

'我把心留下来，身体给了它' -HKT, in real life

刚才有陌生人一直问我不想回答的问题。

除了不想......或许参杂了一丝不知如何回答的心情。

生平少数次，我不知如何回答问题。

因为不想面对，而选择逃避。

因为逃避，所以不想回答这个问题。

太多太多的回忆了.......可是怎么老想不起这些回忆是什么?

记不起的回忆....使我老是睡不安稳。

回忆出现在梦里，梦醒后的苦滋并不好受。

心坎里头的话，你听到了吗？

结果天亮时，大家还是选择离我而去。

虽然身体坚持往前，但内心早已向现实底头了。

'已经不能再回到从前了' ~ 这句话我铭记在心

内心还是一直希望.........天冷你就回来

你明白吗？如果我不直说，你能听明白我心坎里头的话吗？

不要以为你很懂.......其实你什么都不懂.....

甲午 ~ 北京

有人说

'天下间最难的事就是人的事了' - HKT, in real life

有人说.....

我很利害。今年已经参与五部戏了

有人说.....

我很能干。读书, 补习, 戏剧兵分三路

不。

我并不能干

我也没有很利害

其实.......

我只不过用工作来麻醉自己

我很累了......

可是我却不能停下来

要是停下就会觉得生活很辛苦, 很难过.....

虽然忙，独自在路上奔走的时候脑海中总是很多思绪......

一个人的时候, 总会想起他, 她和他......

我们都在同样的天空下, 却都在不同的世界里生活着

如果世界没有下一秒, 这一刻我会慧心一笑说：

'我终于可以休息了'

Hairspray

Watched 'Hairspray' yesterday at the new AMK Hub.

Er.... actually is it new or just that I sua ku never go before?

Talk about asking the obvious

Anyway the movie was fantastic..... Simply wonderful...... And I love it very much. But in a different way as Perhaps Love.

Er.... Lazy to elaborate more....

A few days ago, I had a new idea for a short film all of a sudden.......

So there's a high chance I will take a film module next semester and make the short film..... if I can formulate the idea properly by then.....

But this time round it will be made guerrilla style......


Maybe one day, I will make a musical. But I think musical films are very very difficult to do.....
















A place so full of memories....... The good and the bad all in it......

My life will be very different if it ever get demolished....

It will be like taking away a precious part of me.....

Please don't say goodbye.

Gekleng Off To Taiwan

"要走的人始终会走的，留也留不住" - HKT, in real life

Yesterday morning went to see Gekleng off at the airport.

My friend.

The one that I always feel happy talking to. Okay. Not always. Mostly

The one that is damn funny.

The one that I go so many places and play so many things together with.

Gone. Just like that.....

Yet another friend separated from me within a span of four days.

Within two weeks, four of my good friends would have dispersed all over the world.

只有我还在这.........在这原地徘徊

I kinda regret taking on 'Ignorland' now. Cause my schedule is so packed I cannot spend time with good friends before they leave Singapore

I got to be in charge of the next ticketed performance next June......

So going to learn aspects of producing and other stuff like forum theatre....

Yay.

Isn't this what I always wanted?

To learn properly about theatre?

Yah. I am happy about learning.

Really. I am glad got people to properly teach me.

But why does it feel like some thing is missing?

No more words of apology please.

They are just irritatingly futile words that people say to make themselves feel less guilty.

If........

Sigh. Forget it.

"天下间最难的事就是人的事了" - HKT, in real life

Season of Departures

Yesterday watched 天冷

Don't really hate it, but don't really like it either.....

To me, its just another one of those shows that I have watched.....

I know alot of people are going to hate me for saying this, cause they LOVE 天冷

Er..... but I don't care......

This is the season of departures..... Everybody leaves Singapore for somewhere else......

Everybody but me.....

Kunhua, Boonseng, Gekleng and Weiliang..... All leaving for somewhere....

你们都走了，那我怎么办？

Sigh....

And some people.... even though they are still here....it feels like they have already left me.....

也没办发了。要走的人始终会走的，留也留不住。谁也没有办发阻挡岁月的流逝

I stayed back and didnt go for SEP for two reasons.....

One of them I failed already.....

The other one is because I wanted to spend more time in theatre.....

So I hope I will love working in Youth Incubator.....

So that I wont regret staying back.... or feel stupid...

'人玩火的时候，受伤的总是自己' - HKT, in real life

I Wish I Wish

I wish I wish........

So Act 20 has finished.

I think its like the biggest production I have done for the year of 2007..... in terms of scale as well as responsibilities as well as effort and time spent....

For this production, I have learnt that:

1) You really need to work like fuck to make sure you have no problems in the near future

2) In Huay Guan we lead a sheltered, pampered and protected life

3) I have somewhat improved a little

4) Be careful what you do or say because it will spread like wildfire

5) You got to be the toughest nut to crack to get people to listen and fear you. Now in Huay Guan, almost everybody fears me

6) Kids can be adorable

7) Dance light cues are not so difficult when you can follow rhythm of music

8) I can follow rhythm of music

9) After awhile, you really don't feel like seeing certain people because they evoke unwanted memories in you

10) People can be really very very cold-hearted

11) Laoshi-s care much for me

12) Feelings can just creep up on you

13) Some people are just plain disgusting you wont wanna work with them in the future

14) The bus to ********* has lost its way

15) Kids don't really know what is love. Good luck to broken hearts in the near future

16) I can cry my heart out in one moment and cue a show without obvious mistakes in the next. I really didn't know I could do that

17) I can have tears welling up in my eyes and million things running through my mind and still cue a show properly (Though Huiling will never agree at all to this)

18) Sometimes you know people lie to you but you must act blur to give each other some lee-way

19) Magic is ephemeral. It doesn't last much longer than a lit cigarette

20) Victoria Theatre can actually hold 200 plus people on stage

Moving on to my next production. Drama Box's 'Ignorland of its name'

Really is every two weeks I plunge into a new production. Since May I have never stopped yet.... This year I have done four and soon it will be five

Going to be quite busy with Youth Incubator.... Never had I thought I would be involved in another organisation other than Huay Guan

And I can't believe I really went and took a step out... Into the real professional world of theatre.
Quite excited..... But quite sad and apprehensive also......

How far I have come. If you told the Kian Tong of 2006 that he would make it this far within a short one year, he would never have believed you....

Probably nobody would.

I went through so much since Zhou Chu. On hindsight, a year has passed and yet so much has happened......

Life is like magic.... Simply ephemeral.

...... that you weren't going away.