And So I Did

I always feel like puking at disgusting thoughts that I suddenly think of....

And so I did just now...

Just now was reading the newspapers when a wonderfully disgusting thought descended upon me from nowhere and I started to feel like puking ...... Yucks. Don't ever think of it again

This long holidays seem to be ending soon already.... After attachment it will be one more week to school re-opening.... Sigh....

Let me look back at what I did..... Or is it too early? Blah whatever...

I pre-calculated my timing in such a way that I would be able to focus fully on a professional production. And so I beg Shanshan for a job in Drama Box's upcoming production.

And so I was in 'Momo'. What was unexpected was Big Huiling was my Stage Manager. It was a god-given chance for my redemption.

And so I redeemed myself..... and proved myself like Boon seng said I should.

Through Momo I got to know a lot of people.... And it was a wonderful eye-opening experience for me.

Shortly after Momo I helped QNT2 with their production....Didnt do much anyway cause I took up a very easy job..... Welfare

But it was not the best of my memories as I was sick and there were alot of things on my mind then...... And of course not to mention that I was under attack by people who just simply couldnt stand me being around

Next, I calculated my timing again and decided to work in 'Full Frontal' I got to work with my idol Li Xie aka Baobao. And it was even more of an eye opening experience because I am working with very good people.....

And I got to know more people...... I think this holidays I made more friends than I had for the past three years added up......

And I learnt more things that I had in the past 6 months....

At the same time I started doing volunteer work at Drama Box. It started with processing feedback forms then later data entry work.....If I didn't volunteer then I can imagine I would staying at home lazing around getting bored and everything.....

And so I did....

Then I did something which is very 'not me' I went to audition for something. Youth Incubator. Till now I still can't understand why I did it and what was driving me.... But I did it anyway for some reason....

And so I went.....

I tried so many new things within this period of time..... And I felt I achieved quite a number of goals as well.....

For once, I felt happy and satisfied.

Next winter I am going to get a job at the Tuck Lee Ice Factory. So that one day, I can have my own factory.

And maybe I will do it.

Haha

Of Fun and More Fun

This week I am going to start following rehearsals for Aug show.... Got to start otherwise won't be ready for the first full run....

Not sure if it is going to be fun, but I am quite happy to be doing a production.

The thought of having 170+ cast members sure boggles my mind.... It doesnt intimidate me, but it boggles my mind....

Does the VT stage even withstand the 170 people during curtain call? Nuts

One thing for sure: I will murder any kid that deserves to be....

The second lesson was fun today..... I was ultra restless for the first tuition session, but somehow both the student and I enjoyed the second tuition at night.... Yay! And today is payday so maybe my mood is better... Haha

I am glad it is going to be a few days of fun before going for attachment...

Only wretched thing is briefing @ MOE on youth day..... Nuts

Okay enough of the 'my sky isn't blue' thing.Stop the multi-coloured sky theory.....

If you look carefully and closely, OUR sky is blue. And Grey on rainy days. And orange during sunset and rise.

No pink or yellow or white or black, damn it. Unless of course if you are colour blind.

Haha

Come away with me

"Next Summer, I am going to take the train to the land of happiness...... If I had one more ticket, would you come with me?" - H.K.T. In real life

How many more days do I have @ Drama Box?

Apparently only one more day on Friday before I have to go for the wretched school attachment.... Really don't feel like going because I have to mix with sweaty, immature and insensitive kids, not to mention in-disciplined....

And then after that we have to present project findings at MOE in front of everyone..... I HATE doing presentations, especially on things that don't interest me.....

Thank goodness my project partner and team leader is a very nice person and fellow NUS-ian. If it was a go-getter over-achiever MOE overseas scholar, I swear I am going to murder myself.

Nicole asked me on the train today why I sign on to teach if I don't seem interested..... Actually a lot of people ask me that question the past month...

I think its because of the money and stability.... But I once had a passion to teach..... Maybe three years of tuition is wearing me out....

Maybe one day I will re-discover the passion for teaching..... God knows.

I think I am going to miss the days at Drama Box when I return to school.... The random light-hearted bantering with Xiao Huiling, Nicole, Josephine and Shanshan...

And 'Blue Chair Zi Char' and 'Wei Xiang Yuan' desserts and many other nice stuff....

Bleh.... So freaking sentimental.... (Pukes)

My sky has no colour today.

What colour is your sky?

Nothing Lasts Forever

I really really REALLY want to share something interesting with you all......

But I have nothing to share really.... The days when this blog was constantly filled with interesting sightings and articles were long gone, and they really seem far far away....

Now day after day is perhaps nothing different.... Every other posting is sappy or about some humdrum day spent at some boring place

Haha, why I am bashing my own blog?

Nothing Lasts Forever, I'm sorry........

Heard a song by Coldplay that went something like that.... Like it quite abit cause the grey shade that the song adopts....

I identify with grey things..... Even interesting blog postings don't last forever.... Haha

A hell lot of a people were at drama box whizzing in and out for the day... Did unpacking for Full Frontal. More work in front of the computer after that..... Never stopped for a breather....

Then had dinner with Xiaorong, Xiangbin and Jessie...... '天冷' sounds exciting....

Then more work in front of computer...... Power Failure FOUR times today. Highest Record since I was there.

Community tour starting.... Looks so interesting.... Too bad I am attached to school otherwise I would love to be in the thick of things.....

Does it sound like an interesting day? Blah blah blah.... BORING

Shit! Next year Huay Guan show and Baobao's show clash together. One month after another.... Which should I forsake?

Maybe I will apply half year leave from school to do all shows.... Haha.

For two days in a row, I cannot see my sky.

Can you see yours?

Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer

Today went to watch Fantastic 4 with two cheapskate girls Nat and Karin....

The soundtrack sounds suspiciously recycled from Spiderman and X-men, and the story attempted a layered plot which eventually seems to be half hearted because the screenwriter went for a easy resolution....

Fantastic Four is essentially a summer blockbuster at heart, not a brainy comic to screen adapdation.....

And comic fans will know that Galactus cannot be defeated so easily by a mere servant Silver Surfer, so the director probably is laying the path for a third sequel.... I just feel unsatisfied at the way Galactus was being destroyed.... Its like there was not enough time and the director just went for a quick and easy ending....

And the storyline borders being ridiculous at time.... But it was enjoyable due to the chemistry of the cast, making it almost believable that the four were a real family...

Okay enough about the movie....

Er... 'Youth Incubator' audition went fine..... It was slightly easier than I thought it would be.... But I wont say that I will get in.... Because it is really quite difficult to say what Xiao Huiling and Qingliang wants or are looking for....

Anyway I had fun during the short session... Felt at ease.... Maybe because I already knew alot of people there..... If they were totally strangers I probably would die of overflying of butterflies in the stomach....

What matters is I had fun.... Enjoying the process is the most important I guess.... Yup!

Next summer, I am going to take the train to land of happiness. They said there is no bitterness over there, and people are never lonely....

If I had one more ticket, would you come with me?

I cannot see my sky today. Can you?

Youth Incubator Programme

Drama Box launched a youth incubator programme.....

Auditioning for it tomorrow...... Er..... Quite nervous....

If don't get in how?

Haha don't get in I get to do other cool stuff like work with Royston Tan in December (hopefully) and Baobao's House of Sin next year.....

So..... good luck to me tomorrow....Haha

My sky is a lonely grey today.

What colour is your sky?

That I would be good

That I would be good, even if I were insane.....

Despite persistent rumours and stubborn suspicions that refuse to subside, I decided to follow my heart.....

To me, words and actions sometimes don't matter. It is what your heart thinks that counts....

This Arts Festival, I watched only 'Wong Kar Wai Dreams' besides the full run of 'Machine'

Couldnt get tickets for 'Dollhouse' and 'Beijing Ren'. But I saw the set for Beijing Ren while I was backstage for Xiao Bai Chuan.... Quite beautiful......

By the way, I didn't really like 'Wong Kar Wai Dreams'.... But it seems that everyone else like it quite alot....

Nat, Karin, Junwei and Yuejuan laoshi all like it..... Hmmm.... Am I missing something here?

Anyway wont do a review for WKW Dreams because lazy here.... But as if anyone wants to read it.... Haha....

Going for Incubator auditions this Sun..... Hope I get in...... Then I can start my formal arts education.....

My sky is a boring blue today....

What colour is your sky?

A Million Miles Away

"是我......如果有多一张船票，你会不会跟我走？" Mo Wan (In the Mood for Love)

I got a question for myself.

I am going to be alright, right?

Right?

From past experience yes definitely.

Today spent my day tuitioning here and tuitioning there..... Getting quite sick and tired of tuition.... Realise I was getting very impatient for the lesson to finish and I kept looking at the clocks at my students' houses...

Maybe I really need to take a break from work and spend time doing nothing at home....

Maybe I really start to get tired of teaching....

Was quite a restless soul today.... Like I was a million miles away

Tomorrow I will be attending a briefing by the school I will be attached to for July.... Once again, bleh!

The grey men are slowly stealing my time away....

Lucky I know someone from school that will be attached to the same school as me.....

Dry my tears for me......

When The Curtain Comes Down

Full Frontal - Xiao Bai Chuan finally ends with the last show today......

No more rehearsals.... I will miss the fun times with the cast and Baobao.....

Though probably I will get to see Baobao and Bianco at Drama Box again soon....

I miss Bianco. Haha.

I learn alot through this production..... And when the audience stood up to clap during the curtain call for Xiao Bai Chuan, I felt a very great sense of pride. And I was touched.....

For a very long time, I have never did a show which I felt a sense of pride in. I think 路人甲 was the last one... For Momo, I was too busy trying to redeem myself

And tonight after bumping out, we had a post production dinner..... And I really learnt quite alot from Jed and Shanshan and the rest by talking to them....

Thanks to my Stage Manager, Xiaorong who have been very accommodating to my silly mistakes and ridiculous comments at times....

If it was Huiling I would have died by now..... Haha

Sometimes alot of people bother to teach me and things and tell me things.... Some of which Huiling has already taught me before..... Some of which I disagree..... Some of which I learn....

A lot of times I wish Huiling was there to tell me whether those things I disagree is correct or wrong.... But I don't think can always rely on her all the time.....

So I go figure myself....

I want to thank Shanshan two times. One for Momo which was my chance at redemption and one for Xiao Bai Chuan, which is a really happy production.... I really felt so happy doing it....

The warmth that Yuejuan Laoshi, Jiaqiang ge, Guanghui, Junwei and Guizhi jie and Baobao brought out during rehearsals and the show was so endearing.... Plus we really had a nice SM and ASM....

It will give me beautiful memories......

They offered me a job at Theatre Practice's next show '天冷就回家' but too bad..... I decided against it because august I have a show and also attachment (I hate it) is coming soon....

Once you over-commit, you will end up screwing up everything.

This is the most important lesson I learnt in 2006.

Thank you everybody. Thank you for making it a happy production....

And Thank you Huiling. Though you didn't do this show, you gifted me the essential skills to have a minimum standard....

I hope I am not a disgrace to you, even if I never ever told anyone that you are my mentor.

The Curtain Comes Down

Spiderman @ Esplanade

In esplanade now using their green room computer now......

Full Frontal schedule delayed so sort of nothing to do......... So bored..... Hope everything goes well because this show is good and I don't want to make mistakes for an Arts Festival show.....

Esplanade Backstage is really quite cool with a huge maze of dressing rooms all connected together.... Various exits leading to different parts of the complex..... Could have played catching in here if I weren't here on a job......

Haha

But it is also big and scary and I still prefer the cozy comfort of Drama Centre Backstage......

Though big and scary they really have some cool stuff here.....

A whole new experience....

Blah blah.....

My sky is a humdrum blue today.....

What colour is your sky over there?

No matter where we are, when we look up, we are looking at the same sky....

If you think like that, does it make you feel less lonely?

Does that make us feel closer?

A million miles away.......

花样年华

People can be a million miles away but they are always around you.

People can be right here next to you but they are actually a million miles away

People can be a million miles away.... And they are really a million miles away......

My sky is dark grey today.

What colour is your sky?

Had three tuition sessions scheduled for today since there were not rehearsals and Drama Box was not opened..... Sent in my Youth Incubator Application.... Hope I really get in.....

Just had a perfect rehearsal yesterday where I made no mistakes with the cues...... Glad I didn't let Baobao down.... On my way to become the Best Sound Op in Singapore.....

And Xiao Huiling says she wants to replace Gekleng as the Best surtitles Op in Singapore..... Haha....

And Jed always cheers me up with his funny comments about everything.... Haha

Anyway, after my first tuition session it started raining very heavily..... Never mind, got myself quite wet with a stupid spoilt umbrella and still travelled from Thomson to Clementi.

Still never mind. Student forgot got tuition. Went to church. Hallelujah!

Felt like scolding 'fuck'. But still had to pretend to be very nice

Rained heavily.... Drenched my pants to go to Serangoon for the next tuition.

Fuck Fuck Fuck!

And the whole day was kind of humdrum.... Cause my mood was affected by a really terrible dream last night.......

Since when Jiantong is affected by the dreams he had? Aiyoh so emotional........

Tomorrow bumping in to Esplanade Theatre Studios..... My first production there....

Hope everything goes well....

And everyone, please come watch Full Frontal. Baobao is good. Her show is good.

For Huay Guan people STILL reading this blog, Yuejuan laoshi is in the play together with a galaxy of theatrical stars...... So do come support.....

I am going to the Hynoptist to remove some memories.... Some people I will completely forget about.....

Then I am not so bitter......

But.....

I am still the loneliest person in the world

Are you a dog?

Here's a tip: Don't ever try to eat cashew nuts before or after you have eaten mangoes.... It will make you damn sick....

Here's a new tip: Don't let a dog eat chocolate muffins....

Drama Box-ed today as usual after a really dumb tuition on drugs (I am suppose to tell the student why is it bad to drink and smoke and take heroin and marijuana)

As usual, saw Byanco and asked if she was a dog..... We have not managed to figure out the question and huiling thinks its too tough a question for a small dog like Byanco to handle....

Then Shanshan said very irritating to hear the question five times a day so decided to put it away for future discussion......

Jed was there so it made the day more fun because he crapped and we listened and crapped sometimes.... He is so full of crap, but damn funny.... I think slightly more funny than me.....

Huiling and I talk talk about Huay guan and also the incubator programme.... Speaking of which I have not sent in the profile.... NUTS

Er.... who wants to hear about Ho Kian Tong's day at Drama Box?

Opps.... Nobody. Boo-hoo-hoo

My sky is an irritating grey today....

What colour is your sky?

Less than 24 hours

盼ZhongKunHua归来

I guess after Saturday, we are fine right?

Right?

Transformers kae? Don't forget....

Today we had a full run for XiaoBaiChuan.... Arghhh yet to find the perfect form for the show, where I make no mistakes at all......

A bit of pressure cause this is my idol's show and I don't want to spoil it...... And also because its a Singapore Arts Fest Show..... Arts Fest leh....

I'm in a Arts Fest show.... Sounds surreal.....

我前世一定犯了重错，所以今生苍天执意要我受苦......

Today a terrifying thought occured to me during rehearsal..... And I couldn't shake it off.... Disturbed by the horrible thought the whole fucking night.....

I think it will haunt me for days to come, or even months and years..... Unless I......

Forget it.... Too many people reading this stupid blog....

有人说：

对最好的朋友可以说九分真话

对爱人可以说八分真话

对好朋友可以说七分真话

对常人只说五分真话

对大嘴巴最多说上三分真话

对敌人连话都不说

只有对自己才把话说满

I think this is a set of very good guidelines to follow..... Thanks to the person who taught me that....

And yes, zhong kunhua.... faster come back.....

I know that alot of people like to come read this blog for various reasons.... Besides being funny, it is also interesting and updates almost daily.....

Now that you all have the chance, read this blog for all you can..... Cause it might not be here for much longer.....

Don't know issit my postings 写得太白了 or too many people reading.... cause like more and more people know alot of things about me.....

In an unknown blog probably I can whatever I want.... 可以把话说满

One more day.

My Name is Kian Tong

Now everybody calls me by my Chinese name Jiantong......

Even Shanshan call me Jiantong.

I think very few people know me as Kiantong already..... Shit.

Okay, my name is Jiantong, but I think I am more used to Kiantong.......

Why is this blog posting so bo liao..... Never mind....

Spent the whole day at Drama Box yesterday processing the last set of feedback forms and playing with Baobao's dog Byanco...... Not sure if it is spelled like that, but it means 小白 in chinese because the dog is white....

Her dog is quite cute..... Quite greedy.... eat this eat that my carrot cake also want to eat..... But its damn obedient because it doesnt bark very much.... like a silent dog..... Next time if I get a dog must get this kind

My favourite question to the dog: 'Byanco, are you a dog?' It seems that the dog have some identity crisis according to the people at Drama Box so I thought I would help the dog figure out this tough problem..... Haha......

Rehearsals was good..... AND I learnt something which I thought was really quite eye-opening...... Jiaqiang-ge and Baobao really knowlegeable.... Like 一言惊醒梦中人......

My horizons are broadened......

My sky is a weird mix of blue and yellow today...... What colour is your sky?

小白船

'Full Frontal' features two prominent theatre artists as directors for this coming Singapore Arts Festival... Li Xie (My Idol) and Peter Sau

They each are doing a re-intepretation of 2 classic plays.....

Li Xie is doing her own interpretation of 小白船 (Little White Sailing Boat), a play written by our very own theatre master and pioneer Kuo Pao Kun.....

And I must say through the rehearsals, she is really very good with updating the piece and making it very relevant to our generation, injecting her own personal flavour into the play which might have been seen as out-dated by now......

Very Creative..... And quite fun to work with actually..... Very friendly.....

And tonight after rehearsals she finally answered my question to last year's 'Trash'

Have not seen Peter Sau's work because I don't have to do his part of the show...

There are two different sets of technical support for the two shows in the same performance.... A new experience.

Constantly enjoying myself in rehearsals because I keep picking up new things on the sly....

But besides rehearsals life is kind of mundane..... Didn't feel like starting tuition lessons after such a long break and was getting used to it.....

But parents keep calling me and sms-ing me to ask for available time slots for their kids.....

All want to suck my blood away.... Arghhh! Then give half baked answers to pacifiy them but still refuse to put the phone down.... Parents just don't get it.

Shuttling between Drama Box, rehearsals and tuition takes away my day.... Don't seem to spend very much time at home at all.......

So is it good or bad? Don't know.

Neither happy nor sad.....

What colour is your sky today?

My sky is..... grey.