Friday, May 30, 2008

A Father's Message

Today, while having tuition, something happened halfway through the lesson which distracted me for the rest of the lesson as well as the entire day.

I received six sms-es, and they make up one important message that I will probably never forget in my life

My father SMS-ed me all the way from China.

As a previous post mentioned, my father lost his job since early this year. In search for better opportunities, he went back to China to try to seek employment.

My father is not a man who express himself well. Neither am I.

In much of my early years, my father is never around because he was constantly working overseas. As a result, we don't talk much over the years. Even till now, we have nothing much to say to each other when we see each other......

So I was quite surprised when he sent an extremely long message to me today. All the way from China.

Below was what he had to say.

健僮吾儿,你好,我是爸爸。目前我住在惠洲老家,一切都好,勿念,但尚没有工作。由于年龄问题难办工作准证,所以爸爸有所感叹,人已老去了!

若找到工作我会寄钱回家,放心吧。特此希望你要百尺竿头更进一步,努力读好你的书,打好基础为将来的前途与幸福而努力,更要注意自己身体健康。同时你是父母的最大儿子,所以爸爸希望你尽量照顾小妹妹的学业与耐心教导,并且希望你要关心和帮助妈妈整理家务。

因她年龄越来越老了,加上尚要工作维持家庭支出。真的,爸爸感到对不起她,特此希你好好照顾她的起居,这是爸爸唯一要求你办好的事。若家中有什么困难,希告诉我。

好吧希你努力学习。

After I read his message, I was totally distracted by it.

I was worried about my father

I was taken aback by the emotional message.

I was.....

.......moved.

I read and re-read the message many many times..... How many times I forgot..... I just keep reading....carefully.... page by page.... line by line.......word by word.....

My student asked me questions.... I answered...... but I know not what I answered..... I talked..... but I couldnt remember what I talked about.........

I just remembered I hid my tears from my student.....

前一句“所以爸爸有所感叹,人已老去了”让我想起了一句常挂在嘴边的话:

谁也没有办法阻挡岁月的流逝

身边的人,年华老去,心里的伤,安能言乎?

后一句“因为她年龄越来越老了,加上尚要工作维持家庭支出。真的,爸爸感到对不起她”让我感触良多,深深的感动瞬间涌上心头。

父亲对母亲的一种愧疚,对家庭的一种责任心,天地为证。

父肺腑之言,让我百感交集,热泪盈眶,情绪久久无法平息

口虽言之,却已不知所云。

I never expected that my father will send me this message. I will never forget what he said.

仰天长叹......

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Friday, July 20, 2007

As Tears Vanish

'Next summer, I am going to take NEVE Express to Gehirn....... If I had one more ticket..... would you come with me?' -H.K.T. in real life

Last night, when I turned around, I recovered some of my most treasured memories.....

As years go by, tears vanish, smiles slowly fade, memories sink to the bottom of your heart..........

Year 2000:

An exclusive invitation on your part led the two of us to board the monorail at Sentosa.....

Then our world didn't involve anybody else. It was just the two of us......

We saw the things that we have already seen for a thousand times ....but......

It was just different.......

Year 2007:

The monorail is no longer there 这里真的不一样了

And our world goes with it as well 陌生了

If I see you someday, would I recognise you? 记忆中的你好像越来越模糊了

Would I know what to say to you? 已经没有办发回到从前了

Five years later, would I remember you? 所以..........

Would you remember me?...........保重.........安康

Next summer, I am going to take the NEVE Express to Gehirn.

They said that everyone there is always happy

And nobody is ever lonely......

If I had one more ticket...... would you come with me?

If you come here......

You'll find me......

I promise.......

(Memories of those coloured years)

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Thursday, June 21, 2007

When The Curtain Comes Down

Full Frontal - Xiao Bai Chuan finally ends with the last show today......

No more rehearsals.... I will miss the fun times with the cast and Baobao.....

Though probably I will get to see Baobao and Bianco at Drama Box again soon....

I miss Bianco. Haha.

I learn alot through this production..... And when the audience stood up to clap during the curtain call for Xiao Bai Chuan, I felt a very great sense of pride. And I was touched.....

For a very long time, I have never did a show which I felt a sense of pride in. I think 路人甲 was the last one... For Momo, I was too busy trying to redeem myself

And tonight after bumping out, we had a post production dinner..... And I really learnt quite alot from Jed and Shanshan and the rest by talking to them....

Thanks to my Stage Manager, Xiaorong who have been very accommodating to my silly mistakes and ridiculous comments at times....

If it was Huiling I would have died by now..... Haha

Sometimes alot of people bother to teach me and things and tell me things.... Some of which Huiling has already taught me before..... Some of which I disagree..... Some of which I learn....

A lot of times I wish Huiling was there to tell me whether those things I disagree is correct or wrong.... But I don't think can always rely on her all the time.....

So I go figure myself....

I want to thank Shanshan two times. One for Momo which was my chance at redemption and one for Xiao Bai Chuan, which is a really happy production.... I really felt so happy doing it....

The warmth that Yuejuan Laoshi, Jiaqiang ge, Guanghui, Junwei and Guizhi jie and Baobao brought out during rehearsals and the show was so endearing.... Plus we really had a nice SM and ASM....

It will give me beautiful memories......

They offered me a job at Theatre Practice's next show '天冷就回家' but too bad..... I decided against it because august I have a show and also attachment (I hate it) is coming soon....

Once you over-commit, you will end up screwing up everything.

This is the most important lesson I learnt in 2006.

Thank you everybody. Thank you for making it a happy production....

And Thank you Huiling. Though you didn't do this show, you gifted me the essential skills to have a minimum standard....

I hope I am not a disgrace to you, even if I never ever told anyone that you are my mentor.

The Curtain Comes Down

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