Lookback 2006

I will be flying off to Taipei like in 36 hours time.....

So here is the final lookback at 2006 before we all usher in 2007......

January

Nothing much happened..... Was busy preparing for 'Ali Baba 2006' production where I was the Stage Manager..... Had an enjoyable time in school because I picked the right modules to do..... Started scriptwriting course with Haiyen Laoshi.... Started going to SUPERHOST live recordings as well to support Yunying and see what Mediacorp is like

Only two tuition classes.... So was very poor

Febuary

Was busy into 'Ali Baba' Uneasy as I felt I was not doing a very good job......But still managed to get through... Skipping school..... Writing my script and trying to sort out the serious problems that plague the script heavily.... But felt confident as someone assured me my script was going in..... Then New Year came and went..... Quite fun.....

Still very poor....

March

'Alibaba' came and went like a breeze..... Cried during the weekend before bump in as I felt super uneasy..... Somemore in huayguan office...... Lucky nobody saw.... Pressure was too great for me to handle.... Broke down during the first full dress rehearsal...... I wonder who knew.....

Thanks Lan Laoshi....Thanks Huiling.... 你们真的帮了我很大的忙..... Thanks Xiuju laoshi... 通融体恤，坚持果断.... 真的不容易.....可是你做到了....... Thanks Manhua laoshi..... Thanks Shuping laoshi 谢谢你们器重我，让我有机会

Made our film project for my film module. One part was based on my script and directed by me

Start to 崛起.... More and more tuition assignments started flowing in...... Restored my high end four figure income

April

April was the happiest month for me..... Our group's film made it to become one of the only four films shown to the entire class in the film module..... And our lecturer really loved our film..... She said she liked my part better than Gekleng's part.....

Was proud of myself..... And the whole lecture class loved our film..... They laughed at my jokes... With every applause and sound of laughter I was lifted higher than ever.....

May

Script lost out..... I admit defeat because I didnt work hard enough to eradicate the problems raised by people.... And I know it is bad as well......But still never mind..... They ignored my comments and went on to choose another script which was terrible.....

All of them went for it..... I wanted to kill myself then

By then I have watched close to 12 performances already...... Saw enough of the outside world to know how insignificant I am.... Was wondering if I would be able to step out....

Results came out.... I did quite well.... MOE sent a congratulatory email.... Was satisfied with myself......

June

World Cup came and went. Lost 400 dollars overall

Huiling became the Production Stage Manager of 周处. Start of a difficult and long learning journey with her..... I was made the ASM......

And we were all in the heat of things trying to prepare for Cat-Bride-LiaoMama (CBL). Thought absolutely nothing about this production...... Because was quite unhappy with some people..... And everybody thinks they are damn good...... And some people got arrogant

Some people got complacent

Some people just treated me like shit......

By now I watched about 23 performances..... The ticket bills came up to about 300 over dollars liao...... Decided more and less that I was ready to move on..... And leave those who thought nothing of me......

Whatever I said nobody listened.... They brushed my ideas aside...... Yingwen was right..... 小Huiling was right.....Hualong was right.... I should stop helping them already..... Why didnt I listen to them when Yingwen and Hualong talked to me in May.......

July

Life was quite difficult because some people just wanted to make things diffcult.... And they made it so because of their POOR ARTISTIC SENSE. Not me.......

Huiling made it worse by constantly scolding me for my mistakes.... And trust me.... they were not pleasant to listen to.... Peifang laoshi was there for one of the dressing downs and she decided to tell Huiling to soften up.....She felt that Huiling was really too harsh

August

NUS school reopen

这时, 我兵分四路, 一举想把'周处', 'CBL', 课业和业务做好

但是把兵力分散，务必求速战..... 兵分四路打持久战，可说是犯了兵家大忌......

结果首尾难顾，连连吃败仗......

During CBL I was just being damn crappy and damn difficult to work with..... But lucky got 大Huitian and Wanxing around to assist me..... Thanks alot.... You all are the best to work with.... Seriously, Wanxing and 大Huitian are damn hardworking and resourceful

援兵来了.......

Huiling's scoldings got even worse..... But just gritted my teeth and bore with it..... Because its really all my fault.....

Near towards the end of CBL announced that I was going to move on liao..... Was too disppointed with some people already.......

Tuition was damn stressful.... But still withstood it with great patience

September

兵分三路，再度出击.......

这时已经不能走回头路了

September was damn bad.... during 周处 was damn stressful...... Huiling scolded and scolded.... mercilessly..... But I still kept quiet.... Because it was all my fault.....

I was really shocked at how lousy I can get at the job........

I was total rubbish.... But somehow during that time I opened up to people in Huay Guan....... And that was the start of something better......

Was just damn glad when it was all finally over......But by then only a chinese phrase can describe my situation '落花流水'

October

By then I started to get to know Tze, Lin, Han, Yuxuan and Huitian better..... Started tuitioning for Huitian.....

And I got to say.... She is damn smart...... Seriously.... this kind of student is god given...... So easy to teach......

Exams were nearing..... But still missing lessons as usual....... Tests were coming back with bad results.... but I remained ambivalent....

November

By then watched close to 30 performances.... Ticket bills came up to about 500 dollars.....

Got to know DanXiaoGui better...... Yeah quite fun.... never knew got such people around that can click and be fun to hang out with.....

Chanced upon the first secret within the HuayGuan circle.... Then there was no turning back..... Somehow I knew more and more till I knew most of the things....

Then information came so fast that I was constantly holding first hand information and many secrets......

Exams came along......再次出兵, 但是之前连连战败, 所以这次打得力不从心, 差点无心再战, 结果兵败金文泰脑林 (Brainforest of Clementi) My cap only 3.88

December

Having fun poking into people's affairs..... Listen abit here, listen abit there..... A quiet end to a tumultuous year.....

Got to know her better..... 老谋深算, 足智多谋, 不愧神也.

Got to know DanXiaoGui even better as well...... Glad that I made the choice to open up to people.....


So this is coming to the end of the year.... And I am going to Taipei to cross new year.....

Hope next year will be better than this year......

See you all next year. Till then take care.

The Battle At Shangfang Valley

各位将军，此战务必要取胜

务必？

结果孔明克复中原的希望还是被一场无情的大雨给浇灭了

Yesterday watched 'Deathnote 2'

Couldnt say I was disappointed..... But couldnt say that I was excited by it either......

What can I say? I dunno?

Forget it..... How can you have an opinion about something when something else is weighing on your mind?

Was watching Spongebob squarepants awhile ago..... Started crying when Spongebob's best friend Sandy the Squirrel was going to leave bikini bottom for her old home Texas....

Then patrick the starfish cracked me up minutes later.....

Even wacky Spongebob has his down days....

What more when we are mere mortals?

I must be going mad.....

Uncomfortable Feeling

走出去就有路

脚受伤了不能走怎么办？

爬出去还会有路吗？

还是会被人踩死？

Got a very uncomfortable feeling since yesterday.......

Like a very heavy weight on my heart.....

Sit also uncomfortable, stand also uncomfortable sleep also uncomfortable.......

Something is wrong..... but I just cant put my finger on what is exactly wrong.....

When Kongming went to war at Qishan with Sima Yi for the final time, he had the same uncomfortable feeling about his first battle.......

And he lost the first battle.......

Something bad is going to happen..... And I dont know exactly what.....

Watched 'Confessions of Pain' yesterday late night. Sneak Preview

Was enjoyable, but nothing new.... Still the same old slickness that carried through from Infernal Affairs Trilogy.... Directors were the same ones from Infernal Affairs

The slickness that characterise triad or cop films from Hong Kong nowadays.....

Story was nothing new or creative either.... But Tony Leung and Takeshi did well enough to carry the film properly and make it enjoyable....

Yet I dont think it is really challenging stuff to both of them

Final verdict: 或可看, 或可不看

Please dont let anything super bad happen now..... I just recovered from the last series of horrible events.... I really wont be able to take it again if I suffer another serious blow.....

I will die on Wuzhang Plains like Kongming....

Manicure At Alexander 2

If you are a loyal and faithful reader of this blog, you would know that 5 months ago, I had my big toenail plucked out at Alexander Hospital.

The toenail was growing deformedly and was accidentally damaged beyond hope while I was walking behind some old lady....

This time round, I also went to Alexander Hospital for my 'manicure'..... Only that it was much bloodier this time round......

I was walking in some crowd because I had to go to the temple to pray...... Reminded myself that I had to be very careful time and time again because I knew my second deformed toenail is hanging loosely and dangerously and I learnt my lesson to be careful after the last round.....

Just when I was about to make it safely out of the crowd and go home safely, the shoe grooves of some idiot walking in front of me hit my toes. I knew from that moment that the inevitable has happened.... I need to go to the hospital.....

Because I was in the middle of a market, I quickly bought a drink and limped to somewhere quiet to sit down..... By then fresh dark red blood was already flowing very freely and staining my slippers....

Haha poor slippers how many times must it be stained by my blood.....

I examined my toe..... Th entire nail was knocked out with half the attachment skin being torn out as well..... Looks really disgusting

But I kept my usual composure..... No shouting, no panicking..... Was able to think calmly and plan what I must do now

After inducing an adrenaline rush to keep the pain at bay, I called my mother to direct her to deposit money in my bank....

Then as calm as ever, I finished my drink before sending myself on a cab to AH.

AH provided free apples and the apples were high grade nice apples...... Having spent 60 dollars and the entire afternoon waiting for the doctor, I grabbed an apple

The procedure went well, less pain than the first 'manicure'...... less drama.... But no less gross... Every twisting of the tweezer on the nail caused more blood to flow..... And there was this flesh tearing sound when the nail was plucked....

Thank goodness for anesthetic....By the way, the nurse who attended to me was damn cute......

Haha......

After the hospital trip I decided to take MRT home..... Not going to take taxi because AH manicure caused me 60 dollars.....

Inspired by 出路, I decided to limp home......

When I reached Yishun, there was still a distance to walk to reach home.... I decided not to take bus because damn crowded and sure to have some idiot to step on my toe.....

I thought I was be a strong 'guofanke' like Hongdou or Ah Xia.... Haha too much 出路 for me....

So I limped my way home on a very long muddy stretch of road.....

Halfway through the walk, I suddenly feel uncomfortable and starting puking on the side of the road....

Out came the apple...... Puked 2 times on the side of the road......

So drama haha....

Anyway today I am going to work in JB...... even with the injured toe........

I think that if Hongdou can go sell biscuit straight after giving birth and Ah Xia can work as a coolie with an injured arm..... I can do it as well....

走出去就有路

Haha

Sweet Secrets

Information exchanged over the last 2 days: 14.3 million tetrabytes

Information exchanged over the last 2 weeks: 2.67 billion tetrabytes

Information exchanged over the last 2 months: 60.27 billion tetrabytes

Information exchanged since August: already unaccountable for

And they say that 'Knowledge is Power'

But I can tell you, knowledge of certain things can be painful.....Even if you are not in the situation, you feel 心痛. Because I care for people.....就这么简单

And again I felt pain today.....Not just pain.... plus worry as well...... I dont like to see people being sad..... Especially kids.... I think when kids are heartbroken or bitter, they are the most painful to watch.....

AND I am so bad..... A few months ago I made her cry.... Then today I made her cry.... OMG I hope I am not going to make people cry again......When I cause people to even start tearing, I feel bad....

Dry your tears..... And be the bravest kid that can ever be..... The dark and bitter world has no place for tears......

And I totally cannot believe it.... After hearing about so many things about other people, in the end the biggest scandal of them all involves........ ME?

Secrets are sweet when presented to you, but once you bite into them, they are so fucking bitter

But why me? I really didnt do anything wrong.....

And I said before already, NO. I dont have. I never. Believe me... PLEASE?

You all dont understand...... Its a sense of 亏欠.... not love..... I am making up for whatever I did wrong long ago, not because I bear feelings....

Can you all understand? I guess you all will never......

Just dont spoil the relationship. I dont mind all this.... but the other party might....... If the relationship falls apart due to your misconceptions, nothing will bring it back.......

And then what shall I do?

On a lighter note...... I hope I can be around to receive the keys to room 2010

And when it comes and we are still here, I will go driving with you in a bus to the happiest place on Earth.........

And then we can eat whatever we want..........

Yuxuan: Bon voyage and see you soon

Tze: Please don't........Please?

Lin: Thank you. Thank you, really......

Tian: Please don't either.......

Zhenhan: Stop...... We all got it wrong.......

I cried too..... And I learned to dry my tears....

天下的大傻瓜

How many other people must we sacrifice in order to keep it safe and flowing?

That question I ask myself over and over again the past 3 weeks...... I didnt even know how I got into the thick of things in the first place........

Now people expect things of me...... They want the flow to go on and on till everything dries up......

Or till the rest gets sacrificed.......

Would I compromise the person I so love now?

Thank goodness no. And I am glad I didnt hesitate....

Was watching amazing race at 2am when I suddenly felt him came back....

"你还好吧"

"还好....这么迟了还不睡，在干吗？"

"在等待。"

"等什么？"

"在等待那没有结果的情义。"

"说人家傻。其实你才是天下的大傻瓜"

"现在要去哪？"

"下一站。"

"下一站在哪？"

"天晓得。珍重。"

And he left........

And I was all alone once again.....

Too Harsh

I think I was too harsh at the dinner table just now.....

As a teacher to be, I should have known better than to use such strong words on you all........

And I regret using strong language on you all just now......... I forgot I was talking to teenagers for awhile.....

And I am sorry for being so hard.........

BUT, everything I said was most sincere and to the best of my knowledge.

And I am not going to retract the facts that I stated...... I would take back the tone if I could, but not the content of what I said.......

You all must understand it is very difficult to balance between saying enough and being too harsh......

天下间最难的事就是人的事了。

And you all might find it hard to believe me because I am the only person who say all these things.........

But once again, I want to stress that it is precisely because I treat you all like good friends and thats why I said all those things......

And maybe you all want to do that also...... Dont keep things between just one or two people if you not happy with another person.....

You all are all friends, so talk like friends....... It is precisely because you all are friends thats why anything not happy must take out and discuss (take note, discuss not quarrel)

And start to learn to take criticism..........

Because you all are growing up......

Growing up is not all about having big birthday parties and collecting the best memories and presents.....

Its about doing things like an adult....... and that includes taking criticism and being more mature.......

Not to say you all very immature.......

But just to let you all know...... If I had to choose between Huay Guan's reputation and my friends, I would choose my friends......

And rather not have said all those things at the dinner table........

Take care....... And all the best for your production.

Robbed and Confession of Pain

Oh my god lah.... 懒得去管 is so fucking difficult to sing lah..... The rhythm so difficult to catch......

And 我吃的起苦 the range so broad not for normal human lah......

Anyway today I got robbed of $1.10

Went downstairs to get a can of coke from the vending machine... Then the vending machine stole my money....

True to the spirit of the quiz that I did a few days ago....... I responded with 'What the fuck? Jibai'

To which an indian uncle next to me applauded and agreed with a few abuse sounding words of his own......

Then I walked over to the nearest mama shop to get my coke at 90cents. So my can of coke essentially costs 2 fucking dollars.....

"Dont say I say one"

Thats the most popular phrase of the month. What you all so scared of? Okay I say that sometimes too

Why not "Dont tell people you know about this"

Opps thats the 2nd most popular phrase of the month......

Lets see...... What do I know?

Nothing. Haha.

Today watched Election2 on DVD. For those who live on Venus or Mars, Election2 is an ultra violent film by Johnnie To about the Hongkong mob......

Was quite disturbed when the protagonist cut up the body of his enemy and shoved the body parts into the meat mincer machine and feed it to the dogs......

Everything shown exactly..... blood everything...... I couldnt quite eat dinner because was really disturbed.....

No wonder it was R21

Then I saw Confessions of Pain publicity shorts......

Rating is yet to be advised....... Well it better not be M18 or R21 otherwise yuxuan is going to kill massacre somebody........

But I would love to see his expression if it was announced to be M18 or R21. LOL

No Artistic Sense

Today I heard from someone that somebody else (that I guess everyone looks up to) said I got no artistic sense.

Does the person mean I can never be artistic director? I am not about to assume this because Huiling (my Stage Management Shifu) always tell me not to assume things that people never directly say out.... Or did the person really mean it........

Haha, I really got spies everywhere..... But dont worry, every god-damn secret is safe with me.... In case you are worried my career is not a gossip monger. My career is a student (nudge daegekleng)........ And dont bother going around digging them out.....You wont begin to imagine who say things and who doesnt.... Anyway I am not some dictator like Hitler who place spies everywhere to kill people who talks about me......

Back to the issue, I am not going to do any explaining or rebuttals.....

Just like I told my informant, I leave it up to you all to judge.......

Its fine with me. I criticise people alot as well, just that I dont gather a whole group of young impressionable young adults to voice my opinions.......

But I had doubts (who will not question oneself after being criticised? Unless you are damn stubborn and bent on doing things your way and producing rubbish in the end.... There's only such a fine line between preserverance and obstinity)....

So I called Huiling (whom I hold in very high regard) to ask her questions.....

She didnt take my side of course, given her very professional and sharp character.....

But her answers (in my interpretation) did help me strengthen my resolve.......

So life goes on......

And by the way, my script goes on as well

ViVO Ear Drum Destroyers

A long time ago, went to Vivocity with my friend for a short walk because he had never been there.

Everybody in Singapore is like at Vivocity lah. While waiting for my friend's grand arrival, already spotted and said hi to like 3 or 4 people liao/

Aiyah what so great about that place that the whole Singapore must meet there? Its just so big that we can put 50 elephants inside and still got space for Moses Lim plus Sheik Haikel thats all.

The shops there are pretty much whatever you can find at Ngee Ann plus other malls in Orchard road.... maybe a bit more high ended

Anyway, while waiting for my friend I decided to walk into Toys R US to see if I can get any ideas for presents for some kids....

Then just as I stepped into the entrance, a piercing scream sliced through the air for a good fucking 10 seconds.

It was so deafening that I could feel TV screens cracking, and pieces of clothing being ripped off customers

I thought they doing promotion for Kungfu Hustle DVD and somebody was performing the 'Lion's Roar' by the famous Landlady

I turned around and saw the kid who screamed standing there.

Gritted my teeth and really wanted to go over there and SLICE open his throat so that he can scream all he wanted....

If I was Cyclops from Xmen my stare would have blasted the kid's fucking intestines open....

In the end, I just mouthed 'Jibai' under my breath, which a sales assistant next to me heard and nodded in overwhelming approval...

But what I saw next irritated me more.... The parent of the kid is standing there laughing at her child antics and apparently found it hilarious....

I mouthed 'Pua jibai' this time, but softer, because I dont want sales assistants to start treating me like their hero

What? You think your child is a fucking circus pet is it? Put him there to perform for everyone to see arh?

In case the parent really think her child is a performing cirque de soleil animal, then I like to tell her that the performance would win the 1st prize for worst performance competition

Nowadays, some singaporeans really dont know how to discipline their fucking kids properly.

Leave them to run around, screaming shouting and basically messing up social disorder....

No wonder some grow up to wreak havoc to become god-damned ugly singaporeans....

We should really have one law to list jibai kids as public nuisances.

The penalty is to slice off their fucking tongues or limbs, which ever is the one that disturbs the rest of us peace loving and good citizens....

Thanks Jiantong

The other night on a silent bus trip home I realised that one person did alot of things for me since I was concious of myself.

Myself. Literally.

When I got angry, I calmed myself down
When I wanted food, I bought food for myself
When I wanted new clothes, I bought them for myself
When I wanted a new gadget I worked to pay for it myself
When I fell down, I picked myself up

When I did badly in something, I encouraged myself
When I felt lonely, I kept myself company
When I was scolded left right centre by people, I told myself it was okay
When I felt bored, I entertained myself the best I could
When I bled, I cleaned myself

When I was sick, I took care of myself
When my tarsal glands got all blocked and swollen, I took myself to the doctor
When there were shows that nobody wanted to watch, I took myself to them
When there was nobody to help me, I helped myself
When I cried, I dried my own tears

When everything bad happened, I brushed it aside myself
When everyone was dead against my decisions, I believed in myself
When everyone has somebody else to go to, I stood by myself

Thanks Jiantong. Thanks for all that you have done for me for the past 10 years.....

Dont ever leave....

.....Please?

Quiz Time

Pulled this from Yuxuan's blog.

Like damn fun.... So here's it. Read carefully. I laid a few msgs/ans for a few pple


1) How old do you wish you were? 30
2) Where were you when 911 happened? at home. watching plane crash building on CNA
3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money? Shout 'WHAT THE FUCK! PUA JIBAI!'
4) Do you count yourself kind? yah. Who dares disagree
5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? at the back of my neck
6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? Morse code
7) Do you know your neighbours? Yup. My neighbour is an ass kicking female army officer
8) What do you consider a vacation? when i die
9) Do you follow your horoscope? Always
10) Would you move for the person you loved? yes
11) Are you touchy feeling? it means if you like to rub people's back or hug them or just touch them to show your affection for them. Not really
12) Dream job? Managing Director of the new IRs
13) Favorite channel(s)? Channel 52. Zhongtian
14) Favorite place to go on weekends? Northpoint
15) Showers or Baths? showers
16) Do you paint your nails? nope
17) Do you trust people easily? not now
18) What are your phobias? loneliness and change
19) Do you want kids? no. unless he is a very quiet sensible and thin boy
20) Do you keep a handwritten journal? no
21) Where would you rather be right now? in people's hearts
22) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy? someone who doesnt know
23) Heavy or light sleeper? 5000kg sleeper
24) Are you paranoid? sometimes
25) Are you impatient? no. unless you damn useless
26) Who can you relate to?? anybody who i can say 10 sentences to and not feel uncomfortable or intimidated
27) What's your favorite pick-up line? do you have a lighter
28) What's your main ringtone on your mobile? no ringtone. its silent
29) What were you doing at midnight last night? polluting the void deck
30) What did the last text on your cellphone say? something about letting someone kill me
31) Whose bed did you sleep in last night? i didnt sleep on a bed last night
32) What color shirt are you wearing? grey
33) Name three things you have on you at all times? chemistry and bio facts, a half functional brain, a broken heart
34) What color are your bed sheets? green
35) How much cash do you have on you right now? haha. an obscene amount. thanks dad
36) What is your favorite part of the chicken? testes
37) What's your favorite town/city? singapore
38) I can't wait till..? my downward spiral stops
39) What did you have for dinner last night? tri-layer sandwich. ~songbo
40) Do you own a gun? no. not even a water gun (nudge many people)
41) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? a chilled cup of coconut rum
42) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs? earning obscene amount of money
43) Last thing you ate? cough medicine
44) What songs do you sing in the shower? yutian. because like Yanzi MTV
45) Last thing that made you laugh? Something about hugging and crying
46) Worst injury you've ever had? flesh being chipped off
47) What's your favorite candy? chocolate counted as candy or not?
48) What song do you want played at your funeral? buddhist scriptures that would clear my sin
49) Ten random people to do this? like everyone on EARTH had done it lah. I am the last
50) Say 'Goodbye' to yourself? not now. my mom will be damn worried

Kiantong's Story

Today I got a story to tell.

This is not some bo liao blog posting. So please read patiently.

A few days ago I met my friend in australia on the msn.....

Then we talked for awhile..... And suddenly I just told him something that nobody knew for a few months.....

I also dont know why I did it........ But sometimes you tell your deepest secrets to those who are the furthest away, physically or emotionally........

I expected a very harsh dressing down from him but it didnt come.......

All he said was: 'Yeah? Continue....'

And then I started to tell him everything that happened...... the past few months........ since performance ended till now..... slowly bit by bit I said more and more......

At the end of it....... he still didnt scold me.....

He just said three sentences:

'Well, I am not going to judge you'

'But you of all people should know that it is no good'

'So just make sure you know what you are doing and will be doing'

And I just lost control of myself and started to sob....

Loudly.......

Uncontrollably.........

I cried so hard that I wasnt even sure what was going on already.

The only other time I cried so hard was when zhen shang gong left wise words for her proteges before she died.....

In this world and day when everyone is so well educated and opinionated, it is hard to find someone who doesnt judge people on some of their actions.....

And listen.....

I think I just felt grateful...........

So dear friends, if you know what is going on, please dont pour advice, no matter how well meaning it is.....

I made advice giving my profession remember? so I know just as well as you do.........

Sometimes when you are defeated you just cant help it.... Its an alternative to suicide, really.

I just need time.... A lot of it.........

Thanks Ravind....... Now I remember why we bothered talking during those hard times in the Army.....

Thank you. Really

Caught......... Almost

Nowadays my favorite song is 路口 by Tanya.

Really very touching song with well written lyrics. Cheer chen rocks!

My favorite two verses:

就当作你的离去起不了作用。

我的心还完整的象一个黑洞。

can well described my feelings during this period of time

走不出的路口

一个人一瞬间淹没在人群中寂寞的路口

and I really feel like that sometimes

Like alot of people around you........ but you just feel like the loneliest person in the world.......

And you just cannot walk out of it.........

Well today my mom almost caught me.......

Was very careless letting things lie around.........

Lucky she never walk near the desk........ I think

Otherwise I would hear no end of it........

Lung failure

Okay the past few days were an absolute disaster.

Battles were fought with proteins, statistical formulae and medicine names and ultimately I feel I lost all of them......

Sad.....MOE officers, please dont come after me....I admit that I have not been studying this semester, but I really worked hark over the past two weeks.....

Okay I learn my lesson already. School is there for you to attend lectures and tutorials, not skip them.......Next semester I am going to work hard......

(Dont I say that after every sem? LoL)

And cough cough cough is all I could do after the exams.......

Went home after a trip to ViVO and Bugis. Then started coughing, badly.....

Then at night sarting to have difficulties breathing, cough cough cough somemore........

Okay, going to die of Lung failure soon........

And I had it coming.........

Better quit bad habits quickly.........

Bad example...... please dont learn.......

Unless you also want to die of lung failure.

Haha