Chinese New Year

'All things that we hold onto are of ultimate impermanence. Only when we let go do we attain true eternity" -Li Mubai (crouching tiger hidden dragon)

My film professor could not understand why the big hoo-ha over this award winning film made by Ang Lee..... He didnt really think the film was that great....

To me, the film is great because of these two lines that cannot be more true......

But ultimately, it is all easier said than done......

Let go let go, where got so easy to let go.....

I felt really tired holding on to it..... but then, when I wanted to let go...... I felt scared..... I felt unwilling......

Because if I did..... what would I do without it? So I eventually still hung on....

What a useless idiot....

I guess I was really tired when the CNY arrived..... not physically.... but mentally...... Every week for seven 2-hour periods, I need to control my temper and maintain a patient, kind voice and a fake smile.....

I was tired till the point that my mood swung from point to point quite badly........ for awhile I was in a terrible mood..... and then suddenly I would be just fine.... then bad mood again the next morning.....

Told a friend that getting so busy just for a stupid CNY, I rather not have a new year...... And for awhile that idea stuck to me.......

The ang pows were meaningless to me...... the small talk with people I rarely see is meaningless.... the food is okay but eventually everyone gets tired of it......

I am really tired.......

And I suddenly remember why that July was that cold.....

I am not going to apologise again.....

I dont think I am the only one at fault...... It takes two hands to clap......

We all repeat our mistakes eventually..... And right now, I am repeating my biggest one.

新年快乐
我要快乐

'Read below for my Valentine's Day Post'

Curse of the Bloody Flower

What's with people's infatuation for a flower that looks like it is menstruating all year round?

Cant everyone get more lame by celebrating a day that is enroached by essential economics and opportunists lurking around every corner?

Naive.......

If Valentine's Day is the only day you can show SPECIAL love for your other one, then april's fool day is the only day humans are fools.....

But we all know it is not like that......

I estimate that we are fools for like 7/8 of our lifespan....... the other eighth of our lives are filled with either flashes of brilliance or moments of ambivalence and indecision......

The city was cursed with the invasion of the bloody flower...... And I had to get away from it.....

So I and Kunhua went to Mingmao's fish farm on Valentine's day........

Yunying's perception of 'big' really got problem...... Mingmao's fish farm is BIG, okay?

And so we saw lots of fishes, fish tanks big and small, and worms......

Then we went JUSCO for lunch and some shopping.... OMG JUSCO is damn big lah.... and I think it is bigger than VIVO.....

Most importantly, it is not filled with jobless ah-peks sitting around and noisy pesky kids and teenagers running around polluting the place.....

After going to mingmao's fish farm, I realised how difficult it is for him......

To be working without your friends in a thrown-off place and having difficult people to deal with...... 应该不容易

And after the trip, I was more certain about one thing....

天下间最难的事就是人的事了

And I was quite affected for a few days since JB...... Because I understood what it was like.....

Loneliness is amplified when you are the only one on this side of the boundary and there are no near wells to fight the fire at your feet.....

Take care

Bird Shit

Yes people, I kena bird shit

On friday, I was eating breakfast at 'Brainforest of Clementi' science canteen as usual......

Was thinking that I better not dirty my white shirt because I was going out with someone in the evening to shop in Orchard.......

Then, just as I finished eating, bird shit dropped on my head and two big splatters on my shirt.....


'Pua Cheebye' was my first natural response to the horrific event that occured..

But I cursed in my heart as there were many people around and I didnt want everyone in the world to know I kena bird shit.....

Damn angry at the stupid bird.....

After washing the bird shit off, quickly called my mom to buy 4D... but never tio.

Fuck.....

In the end go Orchard buy Giordano Shirt to wear....

Okay enough crap.... need to go wash my shirt liao

U-Mee Stall

There is this U-mee stall at my house market that cooks really delicious U-mee

I really like it and although I have tried so many other U-mee stalls, I still find that the one at the market the best.....

I use to patronise it so often that after awhile, the uncle knew me and he would chat with me whenever I go to the stall.....

And he would remember my preferences.... Special chilli sauce, no fried onions please, no spring onions please.....

Lately I have been visiting the stall less and less because I am really busy and I dont get to eat lunch or breakfast at home.....

The last time I visited the stall was like........ I cant remember already....

Today I decided to go get my breakfast there since I had a rare morning at home......

When I reached the coffeeshop, I was disappointed and shocked to find out that the coffeeshop was in construction......

The sight of the coffeeshop in works and under repairs made me felt a sudden sense of loss which was really quite unexplainable.....

I took the stall for granted..... I thought it would always be there when I needed it.... And now, it is gone.... And I wouldnt know whether the stall will be back when the coffeeshop re-opens....

Or is the coffeeshop closing down?

For the rest of the day I felt quite sad and uneasy...... As if someone really close to me died....

I really need how to treasure simple things more......

In the year that passed, I learn to treasure my parents and people that are close to me......

But yet such a simple thing and I let it slip through my fingers so easily......

If only the stall would come back...... I wouldnt mind paying more for the same bowl of U-mee that accompanied me through the ups and downs of 2006

In loving memory of the U-mee stall

Tuitionation

Just realised tuition sort of exploded in my face.....

Everyday got tuition except thurs and fri night......

The pay is sort of good......

But sian.... I want to watch 'Let it shine' Xiao Li Yuan is like my favourite child actor....... He touches me with his sensitive performance......

But sian.... going to miss everything.....

I think I am going to miss 'The Peak' as well.... Sian..... Ou Xuan, I want to marry you!

Going to miss 'War and Beauty'.... Sian.... Anqian, will you marry me??

Okae wait..... Didnt I want to marry Ou Xuan??

I think I want an-qian lah.... Haha she is smarter and also more capable in all sorts of things..... Abit like Kong-Ming (Zhuge Liang) serving as my maid.....

Haha.... whatever, as if anything is going to come true......

Ay? Wasn't I waiting for the rain??

Aiyoh so long...... dont wait already lah..... Wait so long die of thirst already lah.....

But how can I not wait for the beautiful rain...... Loved my rainy days.......

After all, I have been waiting all these years what......

See you in 2020.

以退为进

孙子曰：胜败乃兵家常事

孔明兵法：以退为进

是的！

昨天我兵败K-box.... 敌方以两票险胜我军

其实，此战并无务必要取胜，或可胜，或可不胜

Actually I could have chose two songs that I am very confident of.....

If I had sang 我要快乐？and 难得一见, I could have won by a big margin

可是我有闻敌军非常努力操练，认真对待此场战争

做人吗，替人找台阶下，总好过拆别人的台......

身为有绅士风度的我，又怎么忍心把人家打得落花流水呢？人家可是女生哦

So I choose two songs which I have hardly ever sung and have very little confidence in..... 七里香　and 木乃伊.... and to me, it was disastrous....

虽输了比赛，我却赢得了真正的掌声与认同

我现在是供认的‘才艺小子’了 Haha

孔明当年就是以退为进，在汉中大败司马义魏军的

有时是输是赢，不是一时能分辨的

Haha