Chinese New Year

'All things that we hold onto are of ultimate impermanence. Only when we let go do we attain true eternity" -Li Mubai (crouching tiger hidden dragon)

My film professor could not understand why the big hoo-ha over this award winning film made by Ang Lee..... He didnt really think the film was that great....

To me, the film is great because of these two lines that cannot be more true......

But ultimately, it is all easier said than done......

Let go let go, where got so easy to let go.....

I felt really tired holding on to it..... but then, when I wanted to let go...... I felt scared..... I felt unwilling......

Because if I did..... what would I do without it? So I eventually still hung on....

What a useless idiot....

I guess I was really tired when the CNY arrived..... not physically.... but mentally...... Every week for seven 2-hour periods, I need to control my temper and maintain a patient, kind voice and a fake smile.....

I was tired till the point that my mood swung from point to point quite badly........ for awhile I was in a terrible mood..... and then suddenly I would be just fine.... then bad mood again the next morning.....

Told a friend that getting so busy just for a stupid CNY, I rather not have a new year...... And for awhile that idea stuck to me.......

The ang pows were meaningless to me...... the small talk with people I rarely see is meaningless.... the food is okay but eventually everyone gets tired of it......

I am really tired.......

And I suddenly remember why that July was that cold.....

I am not going to apologise again.....

I dont think I am the only one at fault...... It takes two hands to clap......

We all repeat our mistakes eventually..... And right now, I am repeating my biggest one.

新年快乐
我要快乐

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