Love Has No Logic

Actually, I also don't know.... Why I love you so much.... Sometimes.... A logic that has no logic is my best logic......

The Countdown begins

When you start using another person's name as your password......

Does that mean that you have fallen too deep?

Big Time Shit

I think this is big time shit.

The past week was my school mid term break......And I spent most of it lazing around and watching TV.

Arggggghhhh!

Now I have microbiology report, Immunology test, chemical biology readings and a whole lot of other things to do.

What was I thinking of?

God save me!

Valentine's Day

Now I know where all the sucker capitalists who turned Valentine's Day into a super commercialised day came from.

NUS.

AKA Brainforest of Clementi.

There was a bazaar at Faculty of Science selling Valentine's Day products...... See all the greedy faces trying to grab money from all the clueless customers walking past the bazaar.

The things they sell were quite lame..... and to be honest, the people who bought something from them were probably losers.

Losers because they bought stuff that 2000 other people bought for their so-called loved ones. And they paid a high price for it.

Have anyone heard of my hypothesis?

On Valentine's day:

582 couples in NUS will have sex.

580 of these couples will NOT use a condom.

1400 bunches of flowers gone to waste.

143 people rejected by their secret crushes.

212 tonnes of chocolate were sold or consumed.

35 oak trees were murdered to make the cards sent in Brainforest.

2 packets of condom sold.

Next year on Valentine's Day, I am going to set up a stall. My stall will sell safe sex promotions and abortion services.

On Valentine's Day, I will play videos of foetuses being dragged out of the womb and embryos getting cut up or crushed.

I will display photos of private parts infected badly by viruses and bacteria.

Maybe I will add in a few Edison Chen photos for the special effect.

How romantic.

Haha

Ephemeral Stage Directions

Slurp Slurp..... Slurp Slurp

Wouch raoch..... wouch wouch..... raoch......

Slurp.....Wo....

Explosion. DNA avalanche........

Arhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

Haha.

Tell Me Why

Tell me why, and I try to understand.

Tell me why.......

Why Gurmit Singh is among the top 10 most popular artistes when people simply just find him irritating?

Why Zheng Ge Ping is the best actor when he just have to cow-bei in a super noisy show?

Why is Qi Yu wu not the best actor in a role that convinced people he can do other things rather just being broody?

Why is Ou Xuan not among the top 10 most popular artistes?

Why I am so nasty all of a sudden?

Why Hady Mirza is our Asian Idol when other Idols can sing better?

Why Gurmit Singh is nominated for Golden Horse Best Actor award?

Why I am so nasty all of a sudden?

The Lonely Planet

The loneliest TV remote controller in the world Everything I own is so lonely

Haha

(More pictures of lonely possessions coming up)

A Sixth One

That day went Crystal Jade Kitchen at Holland V to meet nat and karin......


Do you all know that Crystal Jade got two outlets in Holland V?



Well I didnt. So I rush into the wrong one then cannot find the two of them then kenna laughed at by the stupid waitress.....


Anyway, eat and eat like mad and like spend alot....


Well, can't help it if you are rich and earns money easily of course......

Haha.


Anyway a sampling of what we ate

Of course there was more but we forgot to take pictures... Too hungry to care

Yay!

Koh Huiling say I turning brown..... I always wanted to be abit more tanned

Yay!

Manage to squeeze in one more production at the end of year JUST before the Sichuan trip

So its like the sixth already. Record breaking......But I doubt I will push pass that or even reach the same number in the year to come.....

I probably wont be staying in Singapore for Christmas cause a trip to China will take all the way till 30th.....

Sometimes, our dreams offer us comfort that the real world will never give.....

So as long as I can, I will continue to dream.....

Porridge Hotpot

Today went to Liang Seah Street to have Porridge Hotpot with Junpeng, Jiajun and Yonglin.....

Weird combination right?

I know. Tze Hui pang seh.

Even more weird. Yonglin and Jiajun was delayed by something.... So I and Junpeng went Tong Shui for a drink while waiting....

I discovered something about myself.....

I didnt know I am a good conversationalist..... Haha not very familiar with each other but I can dig out 101 things to talk about until the two arrive....

Heard alot about 'purple airplane'..... Oooooo, so interesting. very dramatic.

And I meant it. Not being sarcastic or anything

In retrospect, sometimes QNT shows provide the fun and excitement that no professional theatre group can ever give.

Haha

Four Years Later

Been damn busy for this short period of time.....

Every saturday and sunday is a soul-toturing process attending six different rehearsals at six different time slots, saying the same thing over again 6 times, running around like mad......

And then there is attachment at school....... I have been sent to a secondary school to observe/ teach like a teacher apprentice.

At first not so busy..... Then later my teacher mentor asked for lesson plans and lecture notes.....

And her lesson plans are of damn high standard and lotsa details..... So you can imagine me spending most of time facing powerpoint, adobe and word documents.

Bleh.....

And then there were the normal academic kids...... Irritatingly naughty..... Every time after a lesson with them, it would be like a life-changing ordeal.... And almost everyday I repeat the same god-damn process of being tortured by the kids.......

Why do I keep getting the feeling that I was languishing in the 18 depths of Hell?

Thank goodness Express students were much better... MUCH!

It was as if I died and went to Heaven....

I need to take 8 more days of nonsense before regaining my much wanted freedom..... No restrictive office wear..... No proper body language.... no hard work.....

Four years later on this bridge, she still melts my heart away.......

Because of you, I've learned to cherish the people around me properly.... And take good care of them....

I......

.......hope you are happy.......

It doesn't matter if we are strangers now.....

We were the happiest people on Earth then......

When I turn around...... I bring away good memories of you, and leave those bad ones behind.....

Next summer, I am going to take the NEVE Express to Gehirn

They said that everyone is always happy there, and nobody is ever lonely.....

If I had one more ticket....... would you come with me?

If you come here.....

You'll find me......

I promise.......

NEVE Express

Been attached to school for three days already.....

Its quite alright I must admit, because in between observing lessons, there was really nothing much to do......

But next week hell will probably begin as I start teaching.....

Sigh....

Why can't I be attached to a good school?

Whatever....

I still miss the days @ Drama Box..... Can't wait for attachment to finish.... The stint is really a distraction that is going to hinder me from doing my best for my August production.....

Plus I need to sleep early now...... TSK!

People, have you all watched Drama Box's community tour already? If not, do make an effort to go. I saw the full run the other day and there is only one word to describe it: GOOD

Its FREE
For more details, please visit http://dramabox.org/

By the way, I am now getting closer.....

If I succeed, I will work extremely hard to prove those people who didn't think much of me WRONG.

I will work very hard to make those people regret making 自以为是 judgements and writing people off....

I doubt they will, but don't ever turn back. If you do, they can all go eat SHIT. I said this as a once-friend

Opps. Sorry, Regain composure.

Next summer, I am going to take the train to Gehirn.

They said people are always happy there..... and nobody is ever lonely.

Today I got the train's name. Its called NEVE Express

If I like it there, I might never come back........

If I had one more ticket, would you come with me?

If you come here...... you'll find me......

I promise

Of Fun and More Fun

This week I am going to start following rehearsals for Aug show.... Got to start otherwise won't be ready for the first full run....

Not sure if it is going to be fun, but I am quite happy to be doing a production.

The thought of having 170+ cast members sure boggles my mind.... It doesnt intimidate me, but it boggles my mind....

Does the VT stage even withstand the 170 people during curtain call? Nuts

One thing for sure: I will murder any kid that deserves to be....

The second lesson was fun today..... I was ultra restless for the first tuition session, but somehow both the student and I enjoyed the second tuition at night.... Yay! And today is payday so maybe my mood is better... Haha

I am glad it is going to be a few days of fun before going for attachment...

Only wretched thing is briefing @ MOE on youth day..... Nuts

Okay enough of the 'my sky isn't blue' thing.Stop the multi-coloured sky theory.....

If you look carefully and closely, OUR sky is blue. And Grey on rainy days. And orange during sunset and rise.

No pink or yellow or white or black, damn it. Unless of course if you are colour blind.

Haha

Come away with me

"Next Summer, I am going to take the train to the land of happiness...... If I had one more ticket, would you come with me?" - H.K.T. In real life

How many more days do I have @ Drama Box?

Apparently only one more day on Friday before I have to go for the wretched school attachment.... Really don't feel like going because I have to mix with sweaty, immature and insensitive kids, not to mention in-disciplined....

And then after that we have to present project findings at MOE in front of everyone..... I HATE doing presentations, especially on things that don't interest me.....

Thank goodness my project partner and team leader is a very nice person and fellow NUS-ian. If it was a go-getter over-achiever MOE overseas scholar, I swear I am going to murder myself.

Nicole asked me on the train today why I sign on to teach if I don't seem interested..... Actually a lot of people ask me that question the past month...

I think its because of the money and stability.... But I once had a passion to teach..... Maybe three years of tuition is wearing me out....

Maybe one day I will re-discover the passion for teaching..... God knows.

I think I am going to miss the days at Drama Box when I return to school.... The random light-hearted bantering with Xiao Huiling, Nicole, Josephine and Shanshan...

And 'Blue Chair Zi Char' and 'Wei Xiang Yuan' desserts and many other nice stuff....

Bleh.... So freaking sentimental.... (Pukes)

My sky has no colour today.

What colour is your sky?

Nothing Lasts Forever

I really really REALLY want to share something interesting with you all......

But I have nothing to share really.... The days when this blog was constantly filled with interesting sightings and articles were long gone, and they really seem far far away....

Now day after day is perhaps nothing different.... Every other posting is sappy or about some humdrum day spent at some boring place

Haha, why I am bashing my own blog?

Nothing Lasts Forever, I'm sorry........

Heard a song by Coldplay that went something like that.... Like it quite abit cause the grey shade that the song adopts....

I identify with grey things..... Even interesting blog postings don't last forever.... Haha

A hell lot of a people were at drama box whizzing in and out for the day... Did unpacking for Full Frontal. More work in front of the computer after that..... Never stopped for a breather....

Then had dinner with Xiaorong, Xiangbin and Jessie...... '天冷' sounds exciting....

Then more work in front of computer...... Power Failure FOUR times today. Highest Record since I was there.

Community tour starting.... Looks so interesting.... Too bad I am attached to school otherwise I would love to be in the thick of things.....

Does it sound like an interesting day? Blah blah blah.... BORING

Shit! Next year Huay Guan show and Baobao's show clash together. One month after another.... Which should I forsake?

Maybe I will apply half year leave from school to do all shows.... Haha.

For two days in a row, I cannot see my sky.

Can you see yours?

That I would be good

That I would be good, even if I were insane.....

Despite persistent rumours and stubborn suspicions that refuse to subside, I decided to follow my heart.....

To me, words and actions sometimes don't matter. It is what your heart thinks that counts....

This Arts Festival, I watched only 'Wong Kar Wai Dreams' besides the full run of 'Machine'

Couldnt get tickets for 'Dollhouse' and 'Beijing Ren'. But I saw the set for Beijing Ren while I was backstage for Xiao Bai Chuan.... Quite beautiful......

By the way, I didn't really like 'Wong Kar Wai Dreams'.... But it seems that everyone else like it quite alot....

Nat, Karin, Junwei and Yuejuan laoshi all like it..... Hmmm.... Am I missing something here?

Anyway wont do a review for WKW Dreams because lazy here.... But as if anyone wants to read it.... Haha....

Going for Incubator auditions this Sun..... Hope I get in...... Then I can start my formal arts education.....

My sky is a boring blue today....

What colour is your sky?

A Million Miles Away

"是我......如果有多一张船票，你会不会跟我走？" Mo Wan (In the Mood for Love)

I got a question for myself.

I am going to be alright, right?

Right?

From past experience yes definitely.

Today spent my day tuitioning here and tuitioning there..... Getting quite sick and tired of tuition.... Realise I was getting very impatient for the lesson to finish and I kept looking at the clocks at my students' houses...

Maybe I really need to take a break from work and spend time doing nothing at home....

Maybe I really start to get tired of teaching....

Was quite a restless soul today.... Like I was a million miles away

Tomorrow I will be attending a briefing by the school I will be attached to for July.... Once again, bleh!

The grey men are slowly stealing my time away....

Lucky I know someone from school that will be attached to the same school as me.....

Dry my tears for me......

Spiderman @ Esplanade

In esplanade now using their green room computer now......

Full Frontal schedule delayed so sort of nothing to do......... So bored..... Hope everything goes well because this show is good and I don't want to make mistakes for an Arts Festival show.....

Esplanade Backstage is really quite cool with a huge maze of dressing rooms all connected together.... Various exits leading to different parts of the complex..... Could have played catching in here if I weren't here on a job......

Haha

But it is also big and scary and I still prefer the cozy comfort of Drama Centre Backstage......

Though big and scary they really have some cool stuff here.....

A whole new experience....

Blah blah.....

My sky is a humdrum blue today.....

What colour is your sky over there?

No matter where we are, when we look up, we are looking at the same sky....

If you think like that, does it make you feel less lonely?

Does that make us feel closer?

A million miles away.......

花样年华

People can be a million miles away but they are always around you.

People can be right here next to you but they are actually a million miles away

People can be a million miles away.... And they are really a million miles away......

My sky is dark grey today.

What colour is your sky?

Had three tuition sessions scheduled for today since there were not rehearsals and Drama Box was not opened..... Sent in my Youth Incubator Application.... Hope I really get in.....

Just had a perfect rehearsal yesterday where I made no mistakes with the cues...... Glad I didn't let Baobao down.... On my way to become the Best Sound Op in Singapore.....

And Xiao Huiling says she wants to replace Gekleng as the Best surtitles Op in Singapore..... Haha....

And Jed always cheers me up with his funny comments about everything.... Haha

Anyway, after my first tuition session it started raining very heavily..... Never mind, got myself quite wet with a stupid spoilt umbrella and still travelled from Thomson to Clementi.

Still never mind. Student forgot got tuition. Went to church. Hallelujah!

Felt like scolding 'fuck'. But still had to pretend to be very nice

Rained heavily.... Drenched my pants to go to Serangoon for the next tuition.

Fuck Fuck Fuck!

And the whole day was kind of humdrum.... Cause my mood was affected by a really terrible dream last night.......

Since when Jiantong is affected by the dreams he had? Aiyoh so emotional........

Tomorrow bumping in to Esplanade Theatre Studios..... My first production there....

Hope everything goes well....

And everyone, please come watch Full Frontal. Baobao is good. Her show is good.

For Huay Guan people STILL reading this blog, Yuejuan laoshi is in the play together with a galaxy of theatrical stars...... So do come support.....

I am going to the Hynoptist to remove some memories.... Some people I will completely forget about.....

Then I am not so bitter......

But.....

I am still the loneliest person in the world

Are you a dog?

Here's a tip: Don't ever try to eat cashew nuts before or after you have eaten mangoes.... It will make you damn sick....

Here's a new tip: Don't let a dog eat chocolate muffins....

Drama Box-ed today as usual after a really dumb tuition on drugs (I am suppose to tell the student why is it bad to drink and smoke and take heroin and marijuana)

As usual, saw Byanco and asked if she was a dog..... We have not managed to figure out the question and huiling thinks its too tough a question for a small dog like Byanco to handle....

Then Shanshan said very irritating to hear the question five times a day so decided to put it away for future discussion......

Jed was there so it made the day more fun because he crapped and we listened and crapped sometimes.... He is so full of crap, but damn funny.... I think slightly more funny than me.....

Huiling and I talk talk about Huay guan and also the incubator programme.... Speaking of which I have not sent in the profile.... NUTS

Er.... who wants to hear about Ho Kian Tong's day at Drama Box?

Opps.... Nobody. Boo-hoo-hoo

My sky is an irritating grey today....

What colour is your sky?

Less than 24 hours

My Name is Kian Tong

Now everybody calls me by my Chinese name Jiantong......

Even Shanshan call me Jiantong.

I think very few people know me as Kiantong already..... Shit.

Okay, my name is Jiantong, but I think I am more used to Kiantong.......

Why is this blog posting so bo liao..... Never mind....

Spent the whole day at Drama Box yesterday processing the last set of feedback forms and playing with Baobao's dog Byanco...... Not sure if it is spelled like that, but it means 小白 in chinese because the dog is white....

Her dog is quite cute..... Quite greedy.... eat this eat that my carrot cake also want to eat..... But its damn obedient because it doesnt bark very much.... like a silent dog..... Next time if I get a dog must get this kind

My favourite question to the dog: 'Byanco, are you a dog?' It seems that the dog have some identity crisis according to the people at Drama Box so I thought I would help the dog figure out this tough problem..... Haha......

Rehearsals was good..... AND I learnt something which I thought was really quite eye-opening...... Jiaqiang-ge and Baobao really knowlegeable.... Like 一言惊醒梦中人......

My horizons are broadened......

My sky is a weird mix of blue and yellow today...... What colour is your sky?