The Countdown 2.0

Your name is my recurring choice of password.....

So where does this bring us?

I love you......

more than you know I do.......

The Countdown begins

When you start using another person's name as your password......

Does that mean that you have fallen too deep?

谢谢

其实，我不知道我现在算不算幸福......

可是....

我要谢谢所有曾经觉得可以试着让我快乐而做出努力的人.......

乐观的人会说，幸不幸福或快不快乐就看你怎么看你的人生.......

就祝我幸福吧......

很想不停的往前跑.........

直到未来......

因为当我往回看的时候......

我的影子是孤独的......

心是街口......

人来人往......

从来就不会有人永远留在街口......

所以对我来说......

人生孤独.......

到了最后还是一个人........

路口逗留而留下的脚印丰富了人生情感..........

也让我无法忘了我不想记得的过客........

挥之不散的影子.........

就像抽完的烟........

留下充满悔恨的天空........

谢谢帮助我的人.........

你们虽然无法帮我抹去过客的存在.........

却已让我短暂失忆........

感激......

谢谢........

保重........

安康.......

带我飞到平行宇宙去

请不要被骗......

文字美化了我们的回忆.......

如果你相信，就算只是一刻......

你就会中毒......

万劫不复......

记得闭上你的眼睛........

文字为我们的关系添上虚无缥缈的色彩........

如果画面不是灰色，就算只占了点颜料.......

我们就会难过......

无力回天

请不要难过.......

文字加重了心灵的负担......

如果可以.......

让我们把文字都抹去.......

海阔天空......

如果掉了文字真的可以不爱你......

就让平行宇宙的我们继承我们的迷惑与悲伤.....

让他们完成我们的未完成......

请你要记得.......

人生本来就孤独......

到了最后我们还是会一个人......

不要为我难过......

陌生人.....

珍重.......

原点见.......

停车！为什么不停车？

hit me with the death curse....

and let me drift away from the world who holds me in contempt.........

The world as I know it has moved on without my presence......

yet I cast a long shadow on its path......

If I am fortunate enough.....

let me say goodbye.......

and then surround me with the looming eternal darkness....

I wish.....

I was free.....

and life was less painful....

but since its karma....

it will never be easy.....

The ironic thing about life.....

is that it gave me all that one could ask for.....

yet it took away everything else that I needed.....

So zap me with the death curse.....

and take away everything else I possess......

leave nothing.......

for life isn't about anything really......

really....

悔恨

只可惜,

我们这个时候相遇。

已经来不及了......

你生活在一个没有孤独的地方......

而我.......

存在于一个灰色世界。

如果烟抽到一半的日子，也许我们可以在一起......

可是烟已抽完，留下的天空，充满悔恨........

不要为我难过.....

因为我冷眼看待这世界........

火车开走了,

所以我不会留连于这个地方......

再见了......

陌生人.....

我爱你......

His-story

小时候，最渴望的就是.........
能赶快把功课都做完，让所有的唠叨都停止........

在测验考试里拿到那不管怎么努力都好像拿不到的A-star........

吃好吃的软糖，喝可口的可乐......

还有星期六能没有顾虑得观看‘power rangers'......

年轻的时候，只想........

把功课做完，把考试考完，把所有同学击败，在班名次往上爬..........

得到演出机会........

寻找自己.......

得到身边好朋友的陪伴........

长大了，一直追求......

拥有自己的房子，能赚很多很多的钱........

把生命的孤独甩开...........

快乐这个崇高的理想........

老了......

不知道到老的时候，要得又是什么.......

会不会像所有人一样......

要一个完整的家，整整齐齐，等着抱孙子，然后希望子孙能帮忙买副好棺材，送我上路.....

还是一个人继续追求那似乎遥远的‘快乐’......

无论如何，生命运行着......

人.......

总是要坚强活着？

Happier

Would you be happier.....

.... If we weren't so fine today?

Would the sun shine brighter......

..... if we could all leave our memories behind?

Nobody could be sure anymore......

so.....

What were our feelings?

What are my feelings?

Someday I will take you and reach for the stars.....

run through the dandelion fields.......

swim across the timeless oceans......

But for now......

take care.....

dry your tears.....

wake up from your dreams.......

because the world is no longer real.....

or unreal.......

Its alright......

my world has died out a long time ago......

The mist may bring me away forever........

for my world is strangely quiet on the rowdy street....

I love you.....

more than you know I do......

Happiness.....

What a lofty aspiration.

Bring Me Away Forever

Once again, falling freely into the somewhat comforting emptiness.....

Somehow, I never knew that Yesterday will never come round again.......

Bring me away forever........

Cause I can no longer hear the wonderous sounds of the world.....

My world is loudly quiet on a rowdy street.

忘不掉的歌词 Part I

就算把世界给我。。。。。。

我。。。

还是一无所有。。。

因为。。。

你离去了。

“既然要走，就要不留痕迹”陌生人，in real life

Survivor XIV

Well, I got to admit, objectively speaking, Rusell really played a strategically smart game. And he is definitely smarter than any of the castaways that I have seen this season.

But then, his biggest strategic mistake is the way he placed people in the jury who were going to decide the winner. The wrong way. He didnt think of the long run. Or if he did, he didnt care enough....

In the end, its people's hearts that you must buy. Not the game you played.....

People are going to pat you on the back for being capable, but they are not going to reward you when they have the power to decide, especially when you backstabbed them....

My heart goes out to Brett, Mr. Nice Guy.... Alas, fate did not favor you..... As they say, nice guys never win...

我不是真正的快乐

今天，行人道上，我突然往回看......

我发现.....

我不是真正的快乐。

我知道......

我的笑只不过是我的保护色。

我明白......

我的伤从不肯完全的愈。

我怀疑......

全世界就算和我只有0.01mm的距离，却会像隔着银河。

没关系......

只要太阳.....

月亮......

地球......

云朵.....

依然存在......

没关系。

烟瘾

我还是在寻找一个懂我幽默的人。

懒洋洋的星期天下午，我突然想起了你。

我常在想，如果有一天让我们不小心碰面，我们到底会怎么对待彼此？

会漠视？会点头？会愣住？还是。。。。。

到了最后，我们还是不清不楚的。。。

都是你。干吗要和我说那一段话？干吗要让我觉得这世界上竟然还有人不会推我去死？

一定会有那么一天的。

虽然现在还没有发生，但我们的生活圈子有共同点，总有一天我们会见到的。

所以。。。。

我要去远行

到世界的另一端，去寻找没有你的世界。

再见了，陌生人。。。。我爱你。

UP

Went to watch UP by Pixar studios today... with who else? Zhong Kunhua lah......

Very good film.... Everyone must support.... A film to make you cry, laugh, smile, tear.......

Life as it is..... before your eyes in full colour....

But just take note.... only bright and sunshine people will come here.... so no matter what happens... peel your dark side away... Just for an hour plus....

I.........saw the house....

shrouded in mist......

surrounded by the forest maze......

But........

既然要走，就要不留痕迹

所以.......

保重......

安康......

陌生人.......

我爱你.......

再见了.........

He said: There are no tears to dry away on my face

Not too far in the past, I learned a very important lesson in my life.....

A life-changing experience which will teach me some of the hardest truths in life......

'人玩火的时候，受伤的总是自己' -HKT, in real life

Yup.... when people play with fire, the victims are always themselves.....

Why do you go do something dangerous if you know you are bound to get hurt?

It could be the adrenaline that you crave.... living life on the edge....

It could be the glimmer of hope that you hold.... that you will come through untouched with a positive result.....

Actually, I am not quite sure myself...... Even though I know I shouldnt mess with it, I still do it...... Maybe I am being ruled by the heart and not the head......I guess I havent truly learned to control my emotions

But sometimes..... feelings can just creep up on you..... Emotions are hard to explain..... and even harder to control......

It's like the mesmerising power of fire.... you slowly inch towards it, enchanted by its glow and warmth, enchanted by its bright colour in the midst of the dark.... you try to put your hand slowly towards the fire..... slowly slowly inch by inch, centimetre by centimetre, not concious that you are sending yourself to be burnt by the fire.......

People entered the silent field.... pulled at my heartstrings..... yet I do nothing to let it stop......

There are no tears to dry away on my face.

I cry not, cause I hurt not......

I hurt not..... cause I love not........

Learn not to love.... learn not to hurt.... learn not to cry......

Or dry your own tears

'Don't complain, I can manage' ~Lang Kim Sum

Science Project

Final Year Project Plus Thesis is just like a year-long big project plus lab report.

Just that this super big project and lab report is like four modules worth of credit.....Finally almost going to be done with it. Just going to be so glad when it is all over.

NF-kB Transcription Factor Assay - Nuclear protein levels after CD137 Treatment

RT-PCR of IkB-a after CD137 Activation

Can't wait.

Forever Enthralled

Long time no see......

For the 1 millionth time since the inception of this blog, I am wondering if anyone is still checking my blog regularly for updates.....

Haha.

Thank you to faithful readers..... Been abit too busy.. Maybe soon I would go back to regular updates, when my life is much more interesting than Lab and endless pipetting, incubation, washing and mixing......

If you are still visiting, maybe you are forever enthralled by this blog... That or you are just pure kay poh. HAHA

Been up to nothing much lately.... Just school and my final year project is taking up MOST of the time..... Got so many movies to watch but really really no time.... Gearing up towards finishing my FYP and thesis......

The only other two things I do besides boring school work is just attending lessons at DB (which is like more lessons) as well as watching TV......

Actually attending lessons at DB is not like school classes.... I think they are more interesting, more fun and more possibilities..... Invoke thinking in me that Molecular and Cell Biology has never got me to, build my character in a way that Science would never be able to.....

Not to say Science is bad for me.... It certainly taught me not to be afraid of failing.... To be able to tolerate losing and failure......

Yesterday finally got to watch 'Forever Enthralled' by Chen Kaige.... Not a particularly great film...... But loved the english title.... Cause I think it truly reflects the love that the China Chinese has for Mei Lan Fang and their attitude towards him..... Forever Enthralled......

Okay. Hope will finally have more interesting things to update soon.......

The Retro-reflectionist (后反思者之言)

永远都不会。

所以......

请别说话.

说再多也攻不破绝对领域........

伤害留下的只不过是幻想和回忆。

一转身离开，就不可能再回头了。

所以......

保重......

安康.....

让我流泪的人，谢谢！

'我把心留下来，身体给了它' ~HKT, in real life

那时候，谢幕一开始，我立刻意识到这一切将在那一刻终止。

结果，我做了我最拿手的事情......逃避。

我实在没有办法亲眼目睹。光纤亮丽的舞台，观众赞赏与认同的掌声，表演者兴奋却又些许不舍的笑容.........

所有所有的人里面，我想只有老师发现我立刻不见了，跑到后台去收拾东西，准备撤出剧院。

我怕我撑不住，我把我崩溃，我怕有人看到我伤心难过的样子......

闭幕场之前，老师说了一句话，已经让我坚持不住了.......

'这样对你不好。会成为大家的心魔'

人家弃我而去，老师却总是站在我这里，替我着想。我想应该有人看到我当时的反应，但是没有人敢来问我，因为我是大家的心魔，也因为我下了道指令，要所有人都不能靠近我和老师谈话的地方。

后来我和老师说了什么，我不太记得了。我只记得我对老师说她是对的。谁也没有办法阻挡岁月的流逝。

其实老师从来没有直接说过这句话，是我从她的话里隐射的。是她提醒我的。

老师不知道，这只不过是成长的必经之路......

没有任何人知道，因为没有任何一个人完全明白我的想法。口风紧的人说一些，不信任的人不说，大嘴巴的人更是没话好讲。心里没有人进的去的地方，就叫 '绝对领域'。

我要谢谢真正使我流泪的人，因为流泪就代表我有痛觉，有痛觉就代表我还活着。

即使有再多的伤害和难过也无所谓，证明我还是活着......

不知道为什么，刚才看电视的时候，我惊觉我慢慢的清醒过来了。

让我流泪的人，谢谢！

以后不会再有了。我不会永远都那么天真，那么傻乎乎的。绝对领域慢慢的在扩大着......

我没那么容易把东西忘了，但是总该说声谢谢......

'如其不才，君可自取' ~刘备，in real life

今天我终于取舍了。

The Voice of Silence (无声者)

最近要开始写一个新的剧本。

其中最喜欢的人物就是‘无声者’

无声者

无形、无相、无色无受无时无间、
无身、无行、无意无识无味无触、

无声、无无声......

何处能找到‘无声者’？

远在天边，近在眼前

公元1004 ~ 汴京