What colour is your sky?

How do I start on this posting?

Okay, I have already started........ But I got a thousand and one things I want to say at the same time......

Like I said, I am in the emotional doldrums for the weekend...... Brooding about some stuff.... I couldnt really say its a roller coaster ride...... Because it was defintely all the way down...

And I was sick for the past few days..... Lots of phlegm... swollen throat... nausea.... fever.... headache.... poor appetite...

It had climaxed beautifully tonight on a Sunday night by sending me on the highway to a fever.....

Yet it was the most uneasy, emotionally draining night I have experienced in months...

And I soldiered on.... for the sake of both of us.... Or was it just for my own sake?

Can't be sure.... Sort of confused now.....Caused my mind is a little clouded by the soaring temperatures..... Damn it

I am sorry for everything.... I.....

It could have been a very different night...... But it ended up like that.... I am very sorry

I am damn scared now..... But we had to talk that's for sure.......

If we can get through this together, we will be better. Don't worry. I'm sure we will be.... That is IF we manage to get through

Actually, I really don't want memories of this weekend.... For others, it was a great week but for me, it was some sort of hell.... Both emotionally and physically...

But if I remember anything, it would be these two lines:

My sky isn't blue.
What colour is your sky?

When I heard this, my heart broke